I want to start off by saying I obviously feel horrible, hate myself, etc. This is going to be a lengthy confession so if you manage to read it all I can appreciate it.
In 2012 I discovered both *mod edit* and *mod edit* messenger app, I was 15 at the time. I was a shy kid so it started off as just a fun way of meeting people, chatting to girls or just joining in some random stuff. All was ok until I discovered an app called *mod edit*.
Basically, what I did was I got this stupid idea to create a catfish account. Now I had not been very experienced sexually at this time, so just seeing women nude was exciting. So I would go on google images and search for a 'macho' looking guy and pretend to be him, I would advertise my kik on omegle and would get some messages from girls.
It started just with some harmless raunchy talk or pic sharing, nothing too bad (bra, cleavage, etc) but it soon moved to where girls would send nude pictures. To skip ahead, I eventually developed this awful, horrible thing where after the girls sent me these pictures I would say 'I will only delete these photos if you do what I say' and they would usually freak out, and take more if I asked. Not going to lie, this has happened to more girls than a number you would probably guess but I want to stress that I have never leaked or uploaded any of these girls' pictures.
Anyway this lasted from 2012-2016 and I have only stopped just recently, it was like some sort of sick addiction, like a twisted controlling thing it disgusts me now. To be honest, I am having trouble living with myself and don't know how I am going to enjoy life knowing that this will continue to haunt me.
I don't even know how to go about the legal aspects. If you were in my shoes, would you turn yourself in, I know that at least some of this is illegal (*mod edit*) but I basically just am depressed and can't forgive myself for what I have done.
This guilt prevents me from seeking employment, meeting new people, everything