Not sure

Im not sure if this is the right place to post. 4 years ago i was attacked by some drunks. I know it was 2 of them for sure maybe more idk i cant remember. But i have permanent brain damage to the right frontal loab of my brain. Some of the side effects are . Partial complex siezures and absent siezures. Short term memory loss or black outs where i cant remember parts of the day. Dizzy spells where i stagger like im drunk. Headaches you wouldn't believe. Trust issues i cant stand anyone being behind me. And a lack of remorse . If i think it I say it. I call it being honest but ive been told i am cold and mean. I dont mean to be. I see myself as a nice person . I've heard a lot of people say I'm mean because of the looks I give people and the fact that I dont smile. Its hard for them to understand I cant smile . The part of my brain that's damaged controls involuntary facial expressions. For me to smile I have to think about it and force myself to smile. I've tried doing that but it makes me feel stupid. So I gave up. My wife says i have a pissed off look all the time . And i think maybe that and my lack of remorse is why there is so many rumors about me being mean. And i really dont understand where these rumors come from. I've never picked on anyone. But on the other hand I've never let anyone pick on me. I try to avoid making friends now. I lost so many friends when i got hurt I just decide it wasnt worth the trouble. Most of the friends I lost were do to the siezures. I was shocked to discover how many people I thought were friends . Would start avoiding me if they ever saw me have a siezure.

You just have to remind your wife as patiently and kindly as you can that the attack damaged the part of your brain that lets you smile. It's not an excuse - the brain dictates who we are and what we can do - we have free will within those constraints, but you simply can't be responsible for an attack on you. Perhaps she could have a look at some famous case studies such as that of Phineas Gage if she hasn't read about him:
https://www.theguardian.com/science/blog/2010/nov/05/phineas-gage-head-personality

To be honest, if you don't do anything terrible enough to merit having to feel remorse, then losing one's sense of remorse is not disastrous imho. You just have to live carefully. Hopefully you still have that gut instinct that tells you went not to do something - or a sense of civics and decency and the law which allows you not to act violently or criminally (whether for others or your own self preservation). The fact that you are concerned about this suggests to me that you absolutely do.

I'm sorry that you were attacked and it is outrageous that you have lost friends over it. I am glad that some have stuck by you so you now know who your real friends are