When I was 12-13 years old, I had a friend who I got along with very well. He was about 3 years younger than me. I used to ask him to wrap his arms around my waist and pick me up, kinda like a hug. I admit I became aroused and had an erection when he would do this. I would even use candy as a way to get him to do it because I liked the feeling. Sometimes he would do it and other times he wouldn't. I would dare him to pick me up and tell him if he did, I would give him a piece of candy.
Thinking back to it, I feel really bad as I feel I may have molested him. In no way did I touch his genitals or ask him to touch mine. I just feel really guilty because I became stimulated by this experience and I feel like I used him to experience that feeling over and over again. Did I sexually abuse/molest him or am I overthinking it?
Thanks for reading and I am so sorry for what I did.