hi all, im 22 and need help.. how can i show my mom, dad and my sisters that i hate how i was when i was a kid,. and teenager.. I was voilent, and agressive. Id hit them and they did in no way deserve it..id always go to my room, crying, hating myself for being like this.. im scared they hate me and i wish i couls turn back time and undo all this.. My. mom helped me so much and set herself aside for me when over a. 2 year period had terrible hypocondria.. (i still do, mostle thinking i have aspd or am a. narcissist or something based on my childhood behavior) i litterely did so many stupid and selfish things and been so freaking lazy and not. helping around the house even tho they needed my. help... I also hate the fact thay i probably scared. my sisters when id hit them, and how much they didn deserve it... I ruined their childhood almost and. im. scared they arent happy now..
Im.not.like.this anymore btw.. I changed some years ago im getting my education now, not the slightest agressive I also help. where. i can now, when i can see they need help or when they ask.
I know i cant go back and undo all. this but i so wish i could...How can i show them..