When I was younger about 12 to 19 I did some bad stuff that I didn't really think about at the time. Sometimes I would go through my sister's and friend's mom underwear drawer. I also had a female roommate that I shared a house with in college that I did this as well. I had a pretty strong panty fetish. I realised this was wrong like 6 years ago and haven't done this in 6 years. However it hit me pretty hard how bad this was to do and I can't get over the guilt of it. I have seriously been thinking I am a horrible person for nearly 6 years straight. I have been dealing with a lot of anxiety for 6 years because of this. I was diagnosed with OCD around 12 years of age ( I'm 25). My brain tells me that I am a sexual deviant for doing this and I can't shake that feeling. I have been having panic attacks in the past 6years because my brain tells me I'm not normal and I'm not really sure how I can go in with my life feeling like this. I also found an article : http://www.hypersexualdisorders.com/hyp ... -disorder/ stating that you can be diagnosed with fetishistic disorder if you have violated boundaries in the past. I am extremely anxious right now
-- Sun Jan 15, 2017 7:06 pm --
I don't know what to do. I've been feeling this way for years thinking I am a monster