As a kid online from the ages of 12-14 I would often read taboo themed stories on the internet, usually involving weird stuff like incest that would usually involve mother/son stuff involving a young, often underage son (a bit younger than I was at the time). I would never look at these things nowadays, I honestly have zero interest in this stuff now and the fact that I ever did is upsetting and makes me feel ill.
I specifically remember this one instance, where I wanted something that involved a younger person and searched 'kid' alongside the usual incesty stuff I would search. I can't even remember if anything came up, but I think there may have been some sort of warning at the top that spoke about the dangers of harmful images on the internet, so I may have just not bothered searching at all.
I also have this fear that I may have searched 'video' alongside this stuff, although I also can never recall looking at images/videos of young people. I specifically remember reporting an image I came across on instagram of two teenagers having sex, and was slightly shaken up and disturbed by the image.
I'm not attracted to kids at all, and would never hurt a kid or look up taboo stories like that now. I'm really in a bad state of regret writing this, and I feel so lost.