I think about this almost everyday. I was blackout drunk one night and me and my friend with benefits came back to my flat. At was at this point I started to touch her in her private areas, and I didn't realise the advances were unwanted until she shoved me off of her and ran out. She was panicking and didn't know how to react and I began crying after realising what had just happened. Since then everything's been ###$. I know for a fact this has affected her mentally. It has worsened her already prevalent anxiety and our friendship went through hot and cold moments but I think it is safe to say it's officially ruined. I will never forgive myself for this. I never thought in a million years I would be capable of something so awful. And I'm sure it's only going to be a matter of time before I gave some repercussions whether it be legal or otherwise. I'm stopping drinking- although I'm not using alcohol as an excuse - and I honestly just don't know what to do to rectify this although there is nothing. She has said before that she doesn't think I'm a bad person and that she knows I would never have done this sober, but I still can't shake the feeling that I've ruined this girl who was a good friend of mine. I don't know what I'm hoping to achieve in writing this. I just needed to say to someone.
-- Sun Jan 08, 2017 8:41 am --
Can someone please reply I don't know what to do