See, around that time I had become curious, I of course went for my laptop and started searching- parents hadn't decided I was ready to hear it. Maybe, if they'd talked to me, informed me about how things worked, it never would have happened. I was a child, and so was my sister. I should add I'm also female.
Now, when I had begun my research I began to recognize some things. But I was mostly drawn to a paticular video, one with two females pressing their v's together- you know, all gaspy and such. I was confused and weirded out. Why would that feel good? I was too young to understand, so I asked my younger sister if I could try something. You all probably know what.
Now, mind you, we had barely touched (I mean like, no pressure, just sitting there) before I freaked out, ran, and never spoke of it. She's 9 now, I'm 19. Naturally she knows nothing, and I confessed to my parents of my transgression- they assured me that I was only a child, I hadn't tried anything horrendous, it's ok, etc- they THEN decided to give me the talk.The more I heard, the more horrified I became.
But I still, even now, I feel like scum. Utter trash for it, and I can barely look at her nowadays...and I feel guilty for living at all. How can I somehow redeem myself or repent for this?

If you can help me, please reply.
