Jashin702 wrote:Well first I'd like to say that what you did as a kid was pretty normal. At that age your hormones are all over the place and you have urges that arent easy to stop, sometimes those things are inappropriate. I don't know how active your sex life is, but sometimes when people haven't had much sexual experience and are sexually frustrated they think back on there closest sexual encounters, it might just be that and unfortunately it involves your mother. Another thought may be that you have a thing for sleeping women and since you touched your mother while asleep it might be the only thing fulfilling that sexual desire. Memories can't satisfy forever, perhaps that is what's happening you're not able to be satisfied by the memories and are now progressing into sexual fantasies to fulfill that need. Lastly you might just be attracted to your mom, that could be a hard thing to get over. But it's important to remember that just because you are attracted to someone doesn't mean you have to act on it.
Thanks for your reply. My sex life doesn't exist, I tried to get a girlfriend many times but I never succeeded and because of that I quit trying to get one because I feel too bad for getting a no every single time. As you said, the closest sexual encounter is with my mom indeed, because as I said before, I have had zero sexual interaction with other women. What I do sometimes is watch porn. I don't like to watch sex, all I enjoy is seeing natural breasts moving around and being grabbed. Maybe I only like that because of what I do with my mom's boobs, or maybe it's just a thing I have for boobs in general... I don't know.
And you're right when you say I am not able to be satisfied by the memories. I know I shouldn't say this but I would like to try things with her boobs, and I think this would end if I could get them for once without feeling nervous of sneaking into her during her sleep. I also have the constant thought that I will never get the chance to sexually interact with boobs as big as those, and it makes me want to do go for them...
And no, I know I am not attracted to my mom, I like her as my mom and the only thing that attracts me to her are only her boobs. I also have to admit that once I tried to touch her vagina too, but I couldn't really do it and that's something I found out that I am not into it. Sometimes I get fantasy of having sex with her after groping her boobs but I don't see me ever doing that, because I wouldn't want to have sex with my mom...
-- Sun Mar 13, 2016 5:24 pm --
Hello again. I am here again because I need more advices... From quite a while I have avoided this problem, everything was alright, but today I messed up again.
Today I woke up early because I am used to do it during the week to go to classes, but at weekends I stay on my bed for quite a while after waking up but this time I just wanted to get up but was too early. Since I had nothing to do I went to my mom's room and I did it again... Even though she woke up when I got into the bed, after she became sleepy I started putting my hand in one of her boobs again... She didn't do anything when I stood still but then I wanted to move it a bit and she moved my hand away. And then I tried again, did it and then she did the same.
When we got up my mom after a while said I was acting like an abuser... This is too bad, most times I wake up early and I don't do nothing because I get up after she does but when that doesn't happen I mess up...
If I get something to do to avoid getting up early and go to bed nothing bad happens but infortunately that doesn't happen some times. I don't want my mom to think I am a sexual abuser and I need to do something to keep me busy during that time to make me not think about go to her bed and touch her but I have no solutions... What do you think I should do?