I did something evil when I was younger. I was a bully.

please don't read this if you're triggered by suicide, bullying, or self harm. Thank you.


I tried to post this earlier but it didn't work. sorry.

I'm sorry everyone but the guilt has been crushing me

I'm incredibly regretful of the thing I've done, And I really would like to Apologize to the people I hurt. When I was around 9-ish and very new to the internet I was very nasty towards strangers I sent rude and hateful comments, And I might have told someone to kill themselves,I vaguely remember typing it, It's disgusting...why would I do something so horrible?? I had very low self esteem but that does not excuse my actions. I was really jealous of them... I was picked on at that age so why would I be so evil? I feel like I should kill myself for doing something so heinous..one of the girls was an artist, she was really amazing at drawing and I was jealous of her, I really hurt her, I think she's graduated from college now..Looking back on it she was really a nice person, I don't deserve to apologize to her. I can't carry this guilt anymore, I really could have killed those people..they could have been depressed or suicidal, i could have caused them to become depressed or suicidal..all i am is an evil bully. I deserve to die. I know that I don't deserve to feel sad or remorseful about what i did.

so many people have killed themselves because of bullying...I'm a monster.
Those innocent people, I was such a snobby hateful brat. after leaving a mean comment one woman
realized I was a stupid brat and told me to knock it off.. I can only remember bits and pieces of that time. Now that I'm older I try my hardest to be kind to people but still after all that I don't deserve to.
I used to try and bury this in the back of my head but I cannot, I have to pay for my sins.
I hope that they are okay more than anything. they didn't deserve my cruel words

This was 7 years ago but I still think of the people I hurt. I had so long to apologize but I did not, I'm a despicable coward. I understand if nobody wants to talk to me, I deserve this. I think it's karma that I now suffer from suicidal thoughts and That I Self-harm.

I'm sorry. I wish I could turn back time and be a supporting, kind person, Someone who helps those who are hurting. I wish I helped more than I hurt.
I'm sorry for everything.

You're not a horrible person and you don't deserve do die. You were nine years old, you were a child and children sometimes do horrible things. Of course that doesn't make it right but I don't think you meant to harm anyone and if you're very young and immature you often don't know what consequences your actions might have. I think everyone has done things they're not proud of but that doesn't make them horrible or not deserving happiness, it makes them human. Your post sounds so remorseful and from what I read I totally think you are a kind and supportive person.

Totally agreed. Sounds like you were an insecure and jealous child. Most kids can be spiteful and mean. I was bullied a lot at school and, in turn, I bullied my little brother. But people grow up, change and grow. You haven't damaged anyone irreversibly. Apologise when you can and move on. Being an immature little brat - even if a bully - isn't the same as being **evil**

And you aren't evil. You're a decent compassion person who was a bit of a jerk when a young child. If the world was composed of people like you, it really wouldn't be such a bad place to live.