Guilt,Shame and Hopelessness

Hello There

It was before 18 years I had an oral sex exposure with a prostitute. after that, i could not see many gals face to face feeling my penis going like anaconda. it was worser experience in my life and infact not able to see my mom, who is very close to me, i dont have the same feeling now, but the older thoughts which i had between 1997-2004 killing me. right from the time when i woke up, its killing me and i am not able to work. i m on meds[fluvoxin,oleanzapine], but its not helping me. please offer me some help.
Thanks

But it is nothing wrong with having oral sex with a prostitute, at least not to me.

Hope you will look upon yourself without any shame at all. I don´t think you have actual reason to be ashamed.

All the best!

Thanks for your encouraging words. but my guilt is not about with that incident, but the mental stress which provoked some unwanted thoughts which involves my mother. now, i dont have that horrible intrusive thoughts but the pain which i had undergone during my college days and always thinking of my bad thoughts which i underwent.. lot of stress

ocd18yrs wrote:Thanks for your encouraging words. but my guilt is not about with that incident, but the mental stress which provoked some unwanted thoughts which involves my mother. now, i dont have that horrible intrusive thoughts but the pain which i had undergone during my college days and always thinking of my bad thoughts which i underwent.. lot of stress

Hey! I am sorry I misunderstood. I feel sorry for you beeing in that kind of stress. I hope you can focus on somethingyou really want, and that it might lower the pressure. I sannot give so much helpful advise on the info given .... But I have been trough some hardships, myself, that I never thought I would survive.
I hope you will find a solution. I really do.

See ya!

panicroom

Thoughts are just thoughts, it's your actions that morally define you and, by the sounds of it, you've done nothing wrong!

If it helps remember also that you were a child (under 18) when having these thoughts and now you are an adult (18 and over) and so are in many respects a different human being. Try to draw a line in the sand. You deserve to.