ashamed(trigger warning)

I just wanted to post that when I was 16 I abused the family dog.i feel so disgusted by it and it follows me everywhere.im always thinking "what if such and such find out" .I want to be freed from it.as much as this is hard to write as im disgusted I feel I need to

not to justify my actions but in my defense.my parents had just split up I was abusing drugs both legal and illegal and drinking.listening to satanic music and fascinated by porn.i came across a site called "throatpokers" its long gone now.but it was about extreme oral sex and cumshots.my sex drive was so high that I really wanted to know what a blowjob felt like.so if you put 2 and 22 together you catch my drift.i feel less than human

tbh my guy that's ###$ up n all but you didn't actually hurt anyone. It's really just some degenerate, though harmless, behaviour of yours at what sounds like a ###$ up time, if you look at it like that and less like a monstrous sin, it'd be better for you, not to mention more accurate.

I can see why you'd be ashamed, but I think it is best to divorce weird behaviour from harmful behaviour. It's hard to say what effect such actions have upon animals, but I feel that a lot of the outrage animal sex cases provoke is hypocritical considering how badly humans treat animals most of the time (your dog probably was less harmed by your behaviour than if he had been placed in a dog fight, for instance).

That said, animals cannot consent (since they have no understanding of the concept!) so I think your behaviour was wrong/ inappropriate, but not life-destroying so. Really the main thing is for you to come to terms with what you did.

At the very least, you were still a child and now that you're an adult (presumably being past 18) you can hopefully start to put your childhood past behind you. Good luck.

Thanks for the input guys.I suppose the right thing to do is leave it in the past and move on instead of persecuting myself.thanks

No worries Glad it was helpful!