When I was 13 and my cousin Jeff was 9 we began experimenting sexually. It started off as just touching and eventually led into oral sex. It never went any further than that. It was always consensual.
I feel so guilty about this. I feel like I'm a child abuser or a monster. This behavior continued over a course of 7 years and was off and on. I feel guilty about being a 16 year old and having oral sex with a 12 year old or being 18 and having oral sex with a 14 year old. Am I terrible? Him and I have discussed this and he feels he is responsible as well as he partook and initiated in most of our hook ups. He is cool with it and told me that he looked it up and everyone does it. I feel terrible about it.
I'm now 22 and we haven't done anything in almost a year and nor do I plan on doing anything. I have been seeing a therapist for 9 months now regarding this and it helps but I still feel like I did something really bad.