I've recently been feeling really bad about something that I did about 10 years ago, when I was 14-ish. I used to ba ysit by next door neighbour alot right from when she was born, she was more like a little sister to me. At this time she was probably around 3.
It was at the stage where lots of people my age were starting to get boyfriends and girlfriends and I felt very inexperienced and insecure... Id never kissed anyone before and i think it was this that led me one day when no-one was there to ask her if she wanted me to kiss her. She said yes, obviously not really comprehending, and I then kissed her on the lips, definitely inappropriately. I DEFINITELY didn't feel attracted to her, never had before, never wanted to do anything since, feel totally disgusted with myself and feel like crying now when I think about it. I can't even believe that I did that now, I always consider myself a good person and then I remember this and feel like a total criminal! How bad do you think this is? How can I move past my guilt?