regret and guilt over sexual exploration on a family member

when i was 14 i had to share a bed with my nephew who was 8. One night when i went to bed i looked at his genitles when he was asleep and touched them a lil bit. i then put his hand on my genitles but took it off cos i knew it was wrong.I dont think i ever did it again after that. it was a one time thing. im 19 now and i cant get over the guilt, shame and regret i feel over this. It tortures me and i hate mysel for what ive done and im afraid i would be labled a peadophile or something horrible like that becaus ethe very thought of people attacking kids and stealing their innocence makes me sick. I never abused or molested him and could nver hurt him. I never intentionally intended to do that when i went to bed. I never found him attractive ever. I see him as a little brother because were so close and theres only 6 years between us. he still doesnt know that i did that. i told my therapist and someone from the samaratins and they both assured me that what i did was an act of innocence and all that happened was that i let my curiosity get the better of me because i was young and stupid. its true. i didnt do it for sexual gratification. i used to masturbate in the same room only because we shared a bed though. i was always attracted to men older than me. still to this day i dont get in relatinships with eople younger because i find it weird. So i know what i did was a stupid desicion i made when i was a kid but i cant let it go. i cant get it out of my head and its giving me major anxiety and stress. i just want the guilt and regret and shame go away

Hi Teardrop. Hopefully you can see my response to your other thread. My understanding is that all three threads you have made relate to the same incident so it might be easier to just talk on one thread and keep replies there. All best; Sprock