When I was a little girl, this girl and I were role playing mom and dad. I was around age 7-8 and she, 6-7. I remember initiating that we could get naked in our underwear and kiss on the lips (pecks) under the blankets like "real couples" do. I *think* however only I got naked in my underwear. I may have said, if I remember correctly, that it would be be boring otherwise and I wouldn't want to play if it got boring, which I realize today that it was very manipulative of me. During our play, she was smiling a lot but she seemed uneasy as well and I think it was because of nervousness. I don't know how enthusiatic she was about this, if she now had any enthusiasm in her, which I highly doubt. I think she also suggested that we skip the kissing... but I told her I don't want to play if that was the case "cause it'd be boring".. which means I coerced her. Shortly after, she said "I don't want to play anymore" and we stopped playing and stated doing individual things.
I realize that legally, I'm fine. But after looking up the effects and symptoms of child-on-child sexual abuse, I'm devastated. It's killing me. I have never ever felt so guilty and sick before. I never want to have such an impact on anybody. I haven't met up with her in years so I don't know how she is doing but I pray to all the gods that exists that she's fine. I may have ruined someone's mental health and if so, I don't ever deserve any hospitality. I just want to fix this.. although I don't think there is a way. I feel sick to my stomach.