Guilt over past abuse - want to tell people.

The thing is, this was a juvenile crime that you did not repeat at an adult. You would not be sent to jail, more then likely, you may have to take sexual education classes, but that would be the extent of it. And all that would do would leave you leaving empty.

You claim you knew what you were doing was wrong, but its obvious you didn't just judging by your comment. You acknowledge your actions weren't out of complete ignorance, but at the same time you were not aware of the dangers of what you were doing. You were obviously in a grey area of growing up, one that led you to doing what you did. You claimed you never made a connection. That is because you had no idea the dangers and extent of what you were doing. Even if you thought what you were doing was "bad"(and in a persons mind at your age, means nothing more just naughtiness, a 12-14 year old still has no idea on the dangers of sexual experimentation at that age, at least most don't).

You even think people should pay the price for their actions for operating on actions such as these. That shows you understand the dangers of sexual abuse, but now you realize your own juvenile mistake and it is consuming the you that desires to be "just." bottom line is mate, you were still naive and pretty much a kid at that age, just a kid with a sexual drive that you did not understand.

I know its hard to not bear the guilt, but its a bad idea to sustain it. Whats done is done, and theres no way to pay for a crime that the childish criminal did not know the extent off.

I wish you the best of luck in recovery, but you do not deserve to bear this guilt.

I would also recommend to stop using Tumblr. That site is horrible in understanding situations and tends to push a one sided agenda filled with bias and bigotry. Just my two cents on the site.

Yo, I got two questions for y'all.

I leave for Uni in two weeks, and I wanna say something to my parents about this before I leave. Something along the lines of being willing to talk about it with my sister if she ever brings it up, as well as with anyone, from school or outside, who would help her through it, as well as being willing to go with what my sister wants to happen, whatever it should be. But I don't know how to say it to them, how to word it - can someone please give a suggestion?

Another thing I've been wondering (this is for anyone who's come forward about their crimes), did you tell your friends directly? How did they react? I'm not planning on doing so any time soon, I was just curious.

-- Fri Sep 04, 2015 10:10 pm --

Hey, is anyone willing to talk over PM's? Preferably someone with a similar experience? Been feeling really rough past few days and don't feel like there's anyone I can talk to about it since my sessions ended (my family have never been the touchy-feely sort), and it'd be great to just have someone to talk to.

-- Fri Oct 30, 2015 12:53 am --

Update.

As you can probably guess since I left I've come to uni. Just over a month in and thing have been alright up until this week. Dunno if it is more to do with the flu I've picked up or stress from all the work I've had to do but I've felt rough as hell recently. For some reason (and this may sound strange), the things I did with my dog have been weighing on me heavier than what I did to my sister. I think the reason for this in my head is that
1: They went on until I was 16 - very recent in the grand scheme of things.
2: The sibling abuse may have been more morally wrong, but if people found out about it there would at least be a sort of gravity to it, whereas the beastiality would just be gross and embarrassing, in a kind of "no one would ever take you seriously about anything after this".

Thinking that if my mind doesn't clear up a lil soon I'll look into the Uni counselling services, feel that'd definitely help.

-- Thu Jan 21, 2016 8:09 pm --

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