i tried to have sex with a teen guy

the therapist told me that getting an erection was normal during my abuse. i've read about such stuff on the internet, but i still feel shame
she told me that human beings are creatures of habit and i'm repeating the behavior that i was meted with, to others...she gave me the counting exercise to make sure i dont commit any act which i'll later repent and that has helped me a lot

about shame, i dont know...i mean i havent ruined the teen's life. although i was about to but i'm glad that he pushed me away. i dont know, part of me always wishes that if it hadnt happened to me when i was a child then i wouldnt have to go through all this stuff...that wish is always there...

Hi

What happened to you as a chid was awful and it should not have happened and you did not have control over it.

Here is the thing, in terms of now. You can take control of what happens. It is different now. You can be in charge of your action which for someone who was abused in a really big deal to take control back. I think your therapist sounds really good and please continue with them. And remember you can be in control of your actions now.

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tiredofmyself wrote:i'm 24 year old guy and was sexually abused as a child. i have had desires to get abused by other men and often i have followed them but the other day i tried to have sex with a teenage guy

i am glad the child pushed me away, but he also insulted me and that makes me feel shame

i dont know what is wrong...i am turning to the guy who abused me and i dont know what to do...had the teenage not stopped me, i would've ruined his life...i feel terrible and dirty, very dirty

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