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I feel really bad . I keep hurting my family. I am worthless. They keep loving me when I don't deserve to be loved. I'm a really bad person. They don't even know who I am. I've done things they don't know about. They have no idea who I am.

I keep hurting my family, and I love them so much . I'd kill anyone for my family, but I can't help myself. I feel like all I'm good at is killing people and hurting people. I feel worthless. I can't hurt anyone. I'm 26.

I really don't know how to apologize.

Have you considered fessing up and reaching out for help?

Anyone can say sorry, but few can actually apologize.

In my personal opinion it would be best to slow down and realize why you want to apologize. Understand your faults, what you have done, and how your family would accept it. Only then can you approach them sincerely. You have probably been stacking the guilt on your shoulders for years and continue to let it build up. If I was going to give advice I would say to sit yourself down and truly think about everything you've done. Has doing all of that changed your family or just yourself? Many people in this world believe that keeping the truth from the ones they love is better than hurting them, but to be honest that's outright blasphemous. Being honest with your family and with yourself will truly release you form the guilt you've piled onto your life. You'll be able to move on and live your life knowing you didn't fail yourself. Family is important but they will not always be there for you. Having their support and love is a wonderful thing, but if you know that you can truly be yourself with nothing to hide in front of those you love then you will always find some measure of happiness.

So think about it. Understand why you want to apologize. Then do it. If you accept yourself in this process then the outcome will not matter, for you will have accepted yourself, faults and all.

ashc wrote:I feel really bad . I keep hurting my family. I am worthless. They keep loving me when I don't deserve to be loved. I'm a really bad person. They don't even know who I am. I've done things they don't know about. They have no idea who I am.

I keep hurting my family, and I love them so much . I'd kill anyone for my family, but I can't help myself. I feel like all I'm good at is killing people and hurting people. I feel worthless. I can't hurt anyone. I'm 26.

I really don't know how to apologize.

Sounds like you are feeling really awful at the moment. One thing I would say firstly is have you objectively looked at your behaviour to see how bad it really is or are you on a downer about yourself and blaming yourself unfairly? Can you tell them how much you love them to reinforce this? Why do you feel worthless? Also can I ask why you feel you are only good at hurting ppl and killing ppl?

Please be kind to yourself

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CrackedGirl wrote:

ashc wrote:I feel really bad . I keep hurting my family. I am worthless. They keep loving me when I don't deserve to be loved. I'm a really bad person. They don't even know who I am. I've done things they don't know about. They have no idea who I am.

I keep hurting my family, and I love them so much . I'd kill anyone for my family, but I can't help myself. I feel like all I'm good at is killing people and hurting people. I feel worthless. I can't hurt anyone. I'm 26.

I really don't know how to apologize.

Sounds like you are feeling really awful at the moment. One thing I would say firstly is have you objectively looked at your behaviour to see how bad it really is or are you on a downer about yourself and blaming yourself unfairly? Can you tell them how much you love them to reinforce this? Why do you feel worthless? Also can I ask why you feel you are only good at hurting ppl and killing ppl?

Please be kind to yourself

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Heck if I know. I was drinking.

Thanks for the responses.

Ah, oh I see

Glad you are doing better now

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