To my stalkee

Hello, I wish I could write this directly to you, but I am not allowed to.

I am sorry for all the things that I have done. Despite being the most evil person you know, I still have some remorse in my heart left.

I am sorry for forcing you to date me/stalking you/harrassing you. I did all of these out of jealousy and insecurity. I am a very insecure person and I had a miserable life without you , that's why I wanted to cherish every moment with you. Although I am an egomaniac , I do truly love you, I will always will, you are my friend in my heart. All those evil things I have done over these times, all those stalkings,upskirts,harrassing words , I did them cause I wanted to avenge the times we weren't together. But you are not obligated to be with me. And you liked this other boy and now you're dating. And I'm still trying to avenge myself by trying to make you break up.

I miss you, I love you, I want to die but I am to scared to kill myself, sometimes I want to kill you and all your friends.
Sometimes I love you, then sometimes I hate you. I can never break free from this,I will when you leave for USA, then what is going to happen ? Who will be my next victim?

I might say these things, but the next day , I will say:
I hate you. You sold me for some other boy, you are a bitch, awhore, you deserved the abuse. I wanna kill you.

I know you'll never forgive me, we will never be friends again. After 7 months, I will never ever see you again. If you go to the prom with that guy, incase I don't sabotage that , I will be really upset over it.

I miss texting you good night, and cuddling the pillow as if it's you.

One day you are going to marry someone and he'll touch your soft skin and will have the chance to see you every single day , he'll wake up and first face he sees will be yours. I'm jealous of him.

I don't know if I want to kiss you or kill you...

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