elfie24 wrote:sprock...no you werent lecturing at all, don't worry. I do believe there are grey areas and I hate this sex obsessed society where anything is seen as sexual assault. Humans do things that other humans don't like or agree to all the time. If we criminalized all of it we wouldnt function as a species.
If this girl felt she as violated then that is her right. But I agree, the OP is in no way a monster. He sounds pretty normal. Yes he may have been inappropriate but I dislike the term 'rapist' in this instance and its connotations.
I have a lot of sympathy when it comes to the stance that there are no grey areas when it comes to consent and rape... I guess I used the fact that 16 is the age of consent here in Britain as a grey area to excuse and minimize my own act of statutory rape in my second relationship (legally, in fact, there is no such thing - it's a blanket term - it would be 'sexual assault of a child' in the state I was in) for some time after the relationship ended, since I'm British and have grown up with 16 being the so-called 'magic number' (*eye roll*). I realize now that this was just denial, so I'm way of people using similar excuses themselves. However much I wish it wasn't, statutory rape is real rape and no less deserving of that term, than any other form of rape.
That said... I know that some states and countries have
arguably overly harsh laws. In California, for example, not only in the age of consent 18, there is no close in age exemption. If I'm honest, I wouldn't necessarily see every 18-year-old Californian sleeping with a 17-year-old partner as a rapist, although legally this may well be the case. I don't like making exception, but that does seem a bit... well... pedantic. It means that legally a massive, massive amount of Californian high schoolers must be rapists. Maybe almost half. That doesn't seem right.
I also find it easier to be harder on myself (and yes, probably men in general) than on partners who society would recognise as female (my first partner in sixth form was a young woman; my third partner during my MA was genderqueer) crossed my own boundaries.
When I lost my virginity at 17, it was because my girlfriend's friends had all placed monetary bets on when we'd have sex, which put on lot on pressure on her, in turn putting pressure on me. I didn't really want to, was too nervous and so wasn't really in the mood and ended up in tears because of my failure! Though we had a pretty good / healthy sex life thereafter, there was one instance in which her mother was downstairs and we were messing about upstairs and she wanted us to have sex. I was nervous about her mum walking in and kept withdrawing, saying that I was anxious because I could hear her walking about. Eventually, my girlfriend, annoyed / angry said something to the effect of 'just do it' and, I'm not sure, but possibly grabbed me. That wasn't great and I remember feeling pretty hurt.
My last partner was genderqueer, which did a hell of a lot to deconstruct my notions of masculinity and heterosexuality and was basically a very good thing for me (also, they're a really nice chap). Because they weren't necessarily comfortable with certain things, we moved away from intercourse and generally just touched instead. I was comfortable being touched genitally and one time my partner was doing this, but then, inserted a finger, without having asked. This wasn't something I had done before and while it was not unpleasant, I felt pretty weird that they hadn't asked for my permission first, as it felt pretty sudden. They then realised they hadn't asked, apologised profusely and asked if it was ok. I said it was, although this was partly because I didn't want to upset my partner further and partly because I remembered touching my own ex (my second girlfriend) in a violatory way without asking and since she had said she just wanted to spoon / cuddle that night, whereas now I was already in a sexual situation, just not one I expected to escalate in that way, it seemed it would be churlish to complain and that I 'deserved' what had happened, which was probably good for me to experience. And y'know, maybe it better helped me appreciate the vulnerable position a person is put in when they are penetrated and the fact that sex will generally be more intimate and potentially anxiety-provoking for biological women.
Anyway, my point is, I don't consider either of my partners above to be abusers or rapists, even though they were a bit entitled / stroppy (in the first instance) and clumsy / careless (in the second). I know they were acts of thoughtlessness, rather than predation or cruelty and it would seem unfair and OTT to class them alongside sex criminals. I guess I would call the instances I've described in which I felt uncomfortable as being 'grey areas', though I'm still not overly keen on the term.
Anyway! Sorry about the long reply. I just wanted to reflect properly upon what you said, rather than respond with an ideological hard-line 'NO THAT'S APOLOGIST!!' answer.