I think i molested my brother, Feeling suicidal

Rob Que wrote:turn urself in

What do you mean?

go 2 your local law enforcement and tell them what you did. crystal?

Rob Que wrote:go 2 your local law enforcement and tell them what you did. crystal?

Isn't suicide a better option?

never...

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=shuNnae-Z94

help ur brother and turn urself in mate... otherwise 2 lives will be llost...

how clear do i need 2 be... don't off urself mate... turn urself in... u were wrong in ur actions.. crystal??? eazy peezy???????

Of course you deserve to live but you should take responsibility.
Suicied wouldn´t help your brother. It cause only more problems for your brother and your family. I would say that you should go to a doctor or therapist and talk about your suicidality, your sexualität and what you have done, how you feel and I think that you really have to and need to help your brother as good as you can.

I don’t think what Rob Que said about turning yourself in will help. The worst of it sounded like it happened when you were just 14, pretty much a kid yourself. You saw something in a video and copied it, as kids sometimes do. It wasn’t right, but it happened and it’s over now. You know better. You have told your therapist about it. You have told your mom too. These are people who know you in real life and presumably want the best outcome for both you and your brother. It’s really good your mom knows as she can watch for any signs that this has adversely affected your brother and help him get therapy or whatever he may need.

Really, what would turning yourself in accomplish? You say your brother doesn’t seem to remember this. If you were to go to the authorities, your brother would likely have to press charges or testify for anything to happen legally. I doubt he would want to do that. If he does remember, the legal process wouldn’t likely be a positive experience for him. I think you are doing what you need to do. You stopped what you now know is wrong. You admitted this to your therapist and mom, which was very difficult, and you are trying to be the best brother you can be. Let your therapist know you are having problems dealing with the guilt and you are having suicidal thoughts.

You do deserve a normal, good life and it’s not too late (at just 17!) to have that.
Take care,
Jan

Rob Que wrote:turn urself in

Are you purposely posting dumb s$#%???? Seems like it to me. If you are going to be disparaging for something someone did years ago, AS A CHILD, and obviously feels bad about, than take a hike.

Thank you for replying.
Therapy is really helping me out, but i still feel bad sometimes, i feel abnormal.
I recently read the Article about the father who shot his son after inappropriately touching his sister and fear that the same thing will happen to me some day.
I try to suppress the fear, but its very difficult.
Sometimes i think it would be better if i tell my brother what i did to him, but i fear to ruin our relationship.
I guess that i'll have to live with this for the rest of my life. I'm sure my brother is not traumatized in any way and he does not fear me at all. I guess i just have to be a good brother from now on, right?
Damn i just hope i can put this behind me some day.