I just want to die

im 17 years old and i have made some really stupid mistakes and ended up in loads of councelling which i am no longer going to, i recently started dating this guy and he told me he was a music producer and worked with people like tulisa! I believed him and was really interested, yesterday i dumped him for letting me down and stuff, then today my sister told me someone called Lewis(i dont know anyone called lewis) went into her work and told him i slept with im To make things worse i found out the guy i was seeing was a compulsive liar and i think he is stiring up loads of crap!

I dont know what to do, with everything that has happened too me in the past i dont know how to cope and i just want it all to end, please help me somebody, my own sisters have turned on me and there is nothing i can do, i just need some help please

Hi lostinsoul95,

I am sorry this happened to you. It seems though that you are dealing with a relationship issue and that doesn't belong to the bullying forum, so I am going to move this topic to the relationship forum.

WM

Hun, I'm really sorry that you're feeling this way. This experience sounds horrendous. First, you meet someone who seems to be really nice, if a little too good to be true, then you find that he has messed you around, treated you badly, lied to you, and on top of everything else has tried to make you look small in front of your sister, as I think it sounds as if this Lewis guy could in fact be the guy you've been seeing, trying to stir things. This has now affected your relationship with her.

You have been through a lot in a short space of time and will need time to process these emotions. What you are feeling right now is a normal response to an unusual situation. If you read the Seven Stages of Grief after the End of a Relationship at the top of this page, it will give you some idea of which stage you're at, and help you to understand all the emotions you're now feeling.

It might be worth writing to your sister, telling her you don't know anyone called Lewis, and explaining what your ex has done, telling her that this has really upset you.

Hun, you mention that other things have happened to you in your past. Sometimes a painful event in the present can bring back all the old painful feelings from the past, if they haven't been worked through or resolvved. Would it be possible for you to have counselling, perhaps via your school or college? This would help you to talk things over, be heard, and to make sense of the emotions that you're feeling.

I'm concerned about the title of your post hun. Have you said this figuratively as an expression of speech or do you really feel very bad? If so, you need to seek help, and to see your doctor as there is a lot he/she can do to help you. Please do this if you feel really bad.

Hun, in time you will look at this experience as part of a learning curve, as the intensity of the emotions goes. However, today you feel pretty bad, and you will need to allow yourself time to grieve, and talk about your feelings with a counsellor if need be.

I've done many things I regret in life, and some are muuuuuch muuuuuch worse than what you've shared. Yet, I have a good life, friends, a career and much to be thankful for. Other people being hostile and judgmental is not your fault. Your being naive and believing this person isn't either, at 17. Don't be so hard on yourself. Humiliation and mistakes are part of life and you're in for more yet. It's ok to want to die (I felt that way just last week...no kidding). This feeling passes and the sun comes out again. Chin up. Courage. Continue to share here. This is, on the whole, a very non-judmental place full of very understanding people.

I just dont know what to do or who to trust and have recently left school so i dont thinj they would help me, i did find out today it was my ex who pretended to be "Lewis" which sucks.
But quite honestly most of the time i do just wish i could end everything because i dont know how to handle everything that has happened before in the past and everything just seems to be getting worse, me and my family are broke and on the verge of homelessness and i just feel competely lost as though nothing i do will ever go right again, im alsmost scraed to be happy and feel stupid if i trust others.

Im 17 surely its unhealthy to have such a sinical veiw on the world? :/

Please speak to you doctor if things are this bad, to the extent that you feel you can't handle any more. In an emergency please ring 999 and go to the emergency department of your local hospital. If you need someone to talk to who will listen non judgmentally, contact your local branch of the Samaritans.

I hope you feel better soon hun, I really do.

masq

http://www.samaritans.org/talk_to_someo ... ranch.aspx

go to a psychologist, be honest with him, follow his advices. you will be better then!

you shouldn't want to die. this is never a solution. life is the most important thing we all have

sdlnean wrote:you shouldn't want to die. this is never a solution. life is the most important thing we all have

No it's not. We don't have it, we don't own it. We're just floating. But why fight the current? You punch the water, it keeps flowing, nothing changes, everything flows. Best to feel the water and enjoy the breeze. You'll get to the ocean one day, there's no need to hurry.

Hi lostinsoul95 -

I can tell you from personal experience I have felt some terrible lows over relationships.

There is a simple reason you need to hang in there. There will be new highs. It goes with the territory of being someone who feels things. Ups, and yes unfortunately downs, but that is what makes you a truly beautiful person. Those emotions, up or down, are like music. Please don't give up. In a universe that is often cold, people who can really feel (and yes, that means sometimes feeling hurt too) are what makes life beautiful. Hang in there. I promise you, you will find a new lover and your heart will sing with joy again.

My best wishes to you!!!

X