Why do i hurt so easily?

Hi im a 17 year old girl and although i am young i have had a lot of relationship problems. Since i was abused from the age of 9 and also things that happened when i was 14, i find it extremely hard to trust. I have been cheated on a lot and often left for my friends and i just cant deal with it. My sisters dont really care when they get hurt, i wish i could be like that. I am so scared to find someone and be happy because everytime i finally get happy, it gets ruined, either because i push them away or a cling on to them in fear of losing them which then pushes them away even further.

I have been hurt and abandoned by men since i can remember starting with my father. I just want to be able to get into a relationship and learn not to be too hands on and paranoid. I recently ruined a relationship with guy that was so interesting and lovely, but i couldnt trust him and now he wont even speak to me. I just dont understand why im like this and i dont want to be like this anymore. But i dont know how to change.

everyone gets hurt and most relationships don't work out, period. the most important relationship you need to work on is the one you have with yourself. get to know you. once you're comfortable in your own skin, you'll have the confidence to bring on a new relationship with someone special.

I suppose it would help if i had some self-confidence :/

Hun, the abuse you have suffered has had its effects upon you, and it has shattered your confidence in yourself and your trust in people. You would be greatly helped by seeing a therapist who can help you to deal with your experiences and to find a way forward. Therapy is really a great help, and it could help you to gain some perspective and to regain all the confidence you have lost. If you're studying, some colleges have counsellors on hand for the students.

Thanks masquerade,
I think i will have to start going back into some therapy, its just making sure my family is okay with it

Hun, the therapy is for YOU, whether or not your family are okay with it. This may be something you have to do, for yourself, for your healing, for your peace of mind. This is something you deserve.