my boyfriend can't handle my depression. is he careless?

hello dear forum angels
I've been reading the messages here when I was depressed and they helped me a lot.
I was reading them when I was getting better, and it also helped me a lot.

now I have a question I'm asking myself day & night:

I met him in april, we were traveling, I was happy and shining. we fell in love quickly and everything looked so perfect. we decided to get married.
I felt I'm so happy I really don't need these medicines anymore (seroxat), so I stopped taking them.
obviously, the episode came. it became worse and worse, until...
now he sent me to my friends, to my family, to doctors, he said he can't give me the help I need.
but,
also pointed it's really my fault and I'm acting silly with this depression I'm making up.
now I'm a little after. not completely well, but much better.
I was complaining to his ears that he doesn't love me, for he wasn't there for me when I really needed support, and he answered he does love me a lot, but he will never be able to support my depression, because he doesn't understand this, and it looks childish to him.

did it happen to anyone here?
what did you do?
what do you think?
after all, it is hard to be around someone with depression.
does it mean he doesn't really love me?
it's just
I love him, but I don't want to cry for his attention...

First of all, you are NOT childish, and it's NOT your fault. Depression is a disorder, not some kind of teenage angst (not saying you are a teenager, you know what I mean). Maybe HE needs to go an talk to someone about depression, learn more about it and how to help others cope with it. He SHOULD be there for you, he can't just brush it off. I think you should probably go back on the pills if they were helping you.

I had a similar situation with my ex. I didn't have depression, I had an eating disorder. I was honest and open with him about it, but he didn't seem to care. He simply pretended like it never happened, which was really hard for me because I really needed some help and support with it. So I understand the need for attention, and you aren't doing in a negative way. A cry for help is much different.

He does love you. He just doesn't know how to help you. He probably hasn't been faced with these kind of issues before, and doesn't know how to react. His response seems to be to pretend that it isn't anything serious, to have to find help elsewhere so he doesn't need to know about it and can continue being happy in the relationship without worrying. It's definitly something you should talk about though, because if he already not able to handle a bump in the road in your relationship, what happens when something else serious comes along?

How does he claim that you are being childish?
I can understand a shout for support but it depends on the dilivery of the shout...personally when someone falls down the stairs a couple times a day to get my attention and have me feel sorry for themselves I tend to get real cold...something I know I should work on, but maybe he needs to work on being warmer to your needs and you might need to have a different approach to your cries for help....
Hope everything terns out for the best
You are in my prayers

*HUG*
Migidarra

I feel so lonely since then.
I feel like he deserted me in my hardest time.
it feels like the cut is already so deep...
I don't know if I can trust him again.
I feel so hurt.

but just 2 months ago he was the love of my life!

could it all be from the depression now?
I feel I'm lying to myself when I continue this relationship as if everything's getting better now.
I don't feel the same about us anymore, but I don't want to make any decesions I'll regret afterwards.
Is it my depression making me feel this way?
when can I trust my own feelings again? (now it became philosophical even...)