who have i become... or what...

i dont know if this belongs in this topic... but i have a MAJOR issue going on with myself. I still act like my Bf of 2 1/2 yrs os my Bf. we still get together rather ocassionally and have sex but there are alos time where we are fighting , screamning at each other and throwing things an then we always somehow end up having sex..

but when i know hes with another girl or even talkin to another girl i get immensely JEALOUS. oh and a little side note, we havnt been together for close to a 1 1/2 yrs.... i still tell my family that we are together, i lie to them all . an when i know my ex isnt answerin my call bc he doesnt want to have to invite me , or talk to me in front of his new "prospect". i drive by his house to see if his car is there. if its not there then i drive by his freinds house.. i call his friends phone *69 to see if they or him will answer... and the sick part is , i can go get with other guys but somehow i still think is justifiable that i do this .

we are basically good friends with occasional beneftits, bc at one point we were each others best friend. i just dont know how to let go of this emtion... i feel sick to my stomach knowing hes with *any* HER other than me... i dont know what to do .

Hi Ceejay,

Do u know he is definately seeing other people? How come you split up in the first place? I have been in exactly the same position! How do you feel about this guy? Are you in love with him? Im afraid at the moment this guy has got you hook, line, and sinker! You may as well be on a fishing rod so he can reel u in whenever he wants hun! The balls in his court at the mo. What is it exactly? Is it the excitement? sex? Do you think you have ever really got over him? The more you keep seeing him.....the more your self-esteem will evaporate! If your with him for something casual well thats a different story. You will realise ceejay you are worth more than this and this fixation in time will turn into hate.... Why not try and let him chase you for a change.....if you stop the contact hes bound to have a shock! But really do you want to be with someone who will not finish a relationship with someone, and doesnt know their own mind? He sounds unreliable to make mature adult decisions, can I ask how old you are?