I have some pretty severe mental problems, and know that the one relief would be friends. But it seems people see me, and instead of seeing all my good qualities, instead see a big sign labeled "Crazy" and steer clear.
I recently contacted through facebook someone I knew years ago, and confessed to him a bit of my issues.
Haven't heard back from him at all, like I've suddenly dropped off the face of the earth.
Feel like I'm on a treadmill, can't change my life, very low level of living. If I had friends, I feel I could perhaps slowly gain enough confidence to begin to make changes. Maybe.
But with everyone acting like I'm the devil himself, I spend most of my time alone.
Feel at the end of my rope.