High powered emotions

I had this great relationship with this great guy, he told me at the beginning that he loved me more then he thought was possible... and I loved him back and that is where i went wrong. It was long distance and i got naggy controlling and he started to hate me but he never actually talked to me about it never asked me to stop or showed that i could trust him and then he wouldnt invite me to camping trips and parties that his friends were throwing and everyone else was getting invited so i was scared that he was cheating on me. we were fighting all the time and I was suicidal as it was in the relationship and stressed because of other things and then he out of the blue broke up with me and i got so upset I couldnt handle it and I wanted to die. he said he wanted to stay good friends but he never asked me to hang out and whenever i asked him to hang out he would ditch out at the last minute and I hate being rejected so I couldnt handle it and i would get mad and he would just start swearing at me and telling me im crazy. and then he deleted me out of his life and i still miss him and i dont know what to do. and then today there has been this guy on my facebook who has him in his profile picture and it bothers me and makes me upset everytime he signs on but im friends with him and i didnt wanna just delete him so i asked if i could delete him because we never talk and he said what? and I told him the real reason and told him how my emotions are highpwered and over the top and said i cant handle his profile picture. he said he understands that im having a tough time. I asked him how (ive never talked to him about it) and apparently joe has been telling people what happened. everyones gunna think im a psycho and i am but i cant beleive he would tell people that. what i cant beleive even more is I still miss him and he still affects me so much, why does he get to be happier with out me and i have to live in pain everyday because of him?

Syldaris, he has been an asshole and very insensitive. It doesn't sound like he deserved you, to be honest. It's cruel that he told people about you and what you go through emotionally, it's not fair, no one deserves to be talked about behind their backs like that.
Maybe you have some issue with getting too attached or maybe you're lonely and need someone. But you're better off without him.

You do sound really upset and anxious over this. I am sorry you are feeling this way. You do not deserve to be made to feel like this by anyone. Can you make a list of all the reasons why you are a good person and deserve to be treated well? Thinking of you.

Cracked

Hello. First off, welcome to the forum. Second, take a big breath in hun. Goodness, you sound so over wound. There is this saying that resentment is like taking poison and waiting for the other person to die. Well, I think the same thing goes if someone says they dont want you and you keep holding on. You are abusing you. Self punishment, holding on and on. All the while your missing out on other people others joys and other happinesses.
Hold out your hands. Make fists, squeaze as tight as you can. Think of him and all the anxiety.... Flick open your hands as quickly as you can.
Let it go. Let him go.
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Thanks so much. Man I love this forum, Ive never felt accepted before.

How are you feeling?

You are accepted here.

Cracked

Im feeling like im only happy when im with other people... therapists they all say practice calming techniques but how is that supposed to make me confident in being alone?

Do you get anxious when you are alone?

Cracked

I get anxious, and extremely depressed because my adhd makes it possible for me to think of several bad things in the span of two minutes ahaha. but i think a lot of it is the anxiety from the bad things that makes me depressed. and the only way i know how to escape it is to hang out with friends and most people reject me or get irritated because I am constantly asking them to hang out. I used to have lots of ffriends so that wasnt a problem but I dont really have much friends anymore and im very particular to who i wanty to hang out with and a lot of times ill ask someone to hang out with me and then in the waiting period i get so depressed that i say i dont want to hang out anymore