more stable now

I remember when I broke up with the first gf I ever really cared about years ago and for the longest time I was a wreck, and even after a relationship a couple years later that was only online and on the phone I was depressed.

I dated a girl at a job later after that who slept with another guy at our workplace and I was stuck working with her for many months following and I didn't think I would trust a woman the same way again.

Now that I met the one I live with now. I dated her and we broke up and I felt regret and lonliness afterwards for a year till we got back together. But after it didn't work again and I broke it off (just a couple days ago), I feel free and calm. She was calm to, I guess it was closure. But she still doesn't want to 'close the door on us'.

After only 2 days I tried to see if I had a chance with this woman that works where we work, that I was interested in between the breakup times and a bit during the relationship. But her close friend looked very sad when she answered me and said that her friend I liked, turned down every guy that asks her, and that she likes being single and doesn't date anyone that works around her.
She's still going to try and talk good of me, but I still don't seem to mind.

I don't know if I'm comfortable now with my own personal happiness or just didn't have a chance to feel close to her and feel the loss. I have no idea how long I'll live here with my ex, if she'll change over time or stay the same, if things will work out but I don't seem to feel bothered by that either.

maybe its good I stay single for a while?

Hi, TryingSoul! If you think that being on your own for a while would be best, you can listen to your instincts. What do you think is making you more stable now? Maybe it's that you have more experience with relationships now. Hey, does the girl you like have any hobbies?