Mambo jambo

I have made a huge mistake on the internet.
I have established a connection to a celebrity and he has talked to me on the internet.
Don`t know if mistake is the right term to use for it?
I became friends and lover with the person in cyber space.
I know it all sounds bizarre and i also felt that way.
I wasn`t meant to become so attached to this person but he started to show me interest after i had sent him some tweets and the ball just started rolling from there.
One night i felt his presence inside me and we had (imaginary) sex or mind ###$(or whatever you would call it).
Our relationship grew and we became closer.
Something went wrong along the way because he found out that i have had some complications with cell changes some years ago.
He got nervous because of my illness and his feelings cooled down.
I have spent some time explaining this problem too him.
For me it sounds like he is a bit naive considering that he is much older then i am and he didn`t know about this common problem.
I have explained more about this problem in another thread so i don`t want to go any deeper with it here.
Since there are people following our relationship in the public eye, i felt as if he was "hanging me out there" or exposing me in a bad way, like i have a decease that would kill him if i had a relationship with him.
There aren`t everything a doctor tells you.
I haven`t got any people in my life to talk to so i express myself on the internet instead. My life has been full of bad situations and unmanageable problems, so i got stuck all by my self.
I got emotionally involved with this man and he got emotionally drawn to me too. Then all of a sudden he goes on a date with another woman while he is still having conversations with me, both in my head and on the internet.
I don`t know how to get untangled again?
First i got upset because he didn`t want me anymore only because of a small problem.
Then he got upset because of something i wrote about one of his films.
He kept me hanging on to him in case the date wouldn`t go well.
I think i gave him constructive critic about the movie. I was being honest, and i said what i meant.
He gave me sympathy , attention and false promises.
I tried to be understanding towards his fear of my past problem.
I explained everything that had been going on and told him that it was a past problem that no longer is a problem.
He had so much anxiety about this that he sometimes went on my nerves, but i still only explained it to him and i was hoping that he would come to some understanding in the end.
He is very neurotic about something`s.
Over 50% have this virus, doctors think that as many as 80% have it.
Many have it without knowing about it because it only becomes "visible" threw cell changes.
He got hysterical after having read about the virus on the internet, because it sounds much worse then how i encountered it.
Of course in a worse case scenario it could end in death.
It says that men are the carriers of this virus, so he could already have it without knowing about it.
They describe symptom`s and of course he immediately thinks that i have had all those, but i haven`t. I have tried to calm him down with the information i had, but it seems like i was only making it worse for some time.
Also i didn`t want to talk about it, since it happened a long time ago.
In the end i had to explain.
You try and explain something medical to a person who hasn`t got any experiences with medical business what so ever, its an annoyance, its like speaking to a 3 year old and explaining why people have sex.
I am not going to die because of the cell changes, i have had treatment and i am well.

He was still talking to me when he all of a sudden decided to go on a date with someone else.
I read about his date in the media. And now he is going to deny all forms of contact with me.
He kept saying that he was in my soup in the beginning of our relationship.
I was thinking he was a real charmer.
Then i got to know him in a deeper way and i liked him more and more.
i felt like we had a connection, which is something he also said to me.
Now i think he only needed that connection to get over his last break up, and i question what his feelings for me really was.
He said he loved me, and wanted to come and visit me on the same day as he went on a date with another woman.
Its like we have gotten used to being in and on each others mind.
I feel greatly insulted by what he did to me. He has also insulted me in other ways, like saying i am fat( i might be a little bit overweight but i am not fat).
Even if he said this he still kept on contacting me on the internet.
I thought it was his way of escaping from the virus.
I told him that we could see a doctor who could tell him some more about this virus, the doctor can also give me an examination (which he has given to me before) if that would make him feel any better.
He doesn`t trust me when i say that its not a problem.
Working on the relationship is clearly not his way of loving someone. He would rather just toss some money at the problem and go his own way. He is very spoilt that way.
The question he always need to ask himself is " does my new sexual partner have the virus without knowing about it?" " Do i have it?"
I find it stupid that he would want to dump me for something so common.
It got him scared(which i understand) but isn`t it a bit neurotic of him to continue to reject me when i have told him that my doctor says i am fine?
Even if our whole break up is about a virus, our relationship was about so much else.
I could really feel him inside my skin and it felt good to have somebody who cared about me for as long as i could have it.
(he has given confirmation in public that he has read my tweets and that he has a connection to me, so this is not just "in my head" he was in it too).
Its my loneliness i have difficulties coping with. How do i get him out of my head?
Do i have to sit here and write 24/7 just to feel like i am talking to someone else?
I still feel as if he is inside my head(and he is) but i don`t really want to talk to him because of the date.
Unfortunately i fell for the nutter and he believes a lot of mambo jambo that i don`t believe in.
He thinks there is a connection between everything and this is how he could make contact with me even in my sleep.
Actors stay away a long time from their spouses so they have to find another way to keep the fire burning.

I think you have to answer the following questions:
- Why stay interested in a man who has insulted your physical being?

- Why stay interested in a man who has betrayed your trust (by seeing that other person)?

- Why stay interested in a man who is only using you as a pawn on his chess-board?

You might answer "I don't know" to each of these - and that's just fine by me - but I'll tell you right now that you owe it to yourself to get this guy out of your life. Sooner or later, he will be gone and you won't hear from him. Before that point, show him that you're in control by getting 'rid' of him first (instead of vice-versa). You can take the chance - right now - to take control of this and move-on. You don't have to send him any message or mail - just move on. Don't read any message he might send; don't answer any call that he might make; and just don't create any form of contact with his life whatsoever.

You have your own issues to tend to, and you could well do without a person like him poisoning your life.

Take care,
Kevin

Thank you for replying.
I am trying.

I know you said for me not to read his messages, and i have tried not to.
I haven`t read anything of his messages since two days ago.
He begged for my attention so long that i had to read it, in the end.
He is still sending my highly insulting messages about the virus i had some years ago.
It doesn`t make any sense.

I am at my wits end in this "relationship".
I am so frustrated that i want someone literally to come and take the wait from my hands.
I have encountered this semi wonderful, semi horrible person on the internet and i don`t know how to get him out of my life again?
He is putting his liabilities on me like he was a slaughter in a slaughter house.
He is confusing, one minute he is all charming and understandable and the next he is a huge pain in the butt.
I don`t want to be a part of his life because of this.
I have tried to get away from him.
If i try to get away from him he gets insulted and will do something to hurt, upset or provoke my feelings. Then we are back at it with the love/hate relationship (that really is turning into a hate thing). Sometimes he says insulting things that he thinks can be forgotten as soon as he has said it. The truth is that i am getting so sick of him.
He doesn`t care that i have my life, he only cares about himself.

I have been trying to explain that i had an emotional affair with a celebrity on the internet. The truth is that he was stalking me and he now has found a new girlfriend.
He has misused and abused my feelings on the internet, making me believe that i was someone he was interested in and also abusing me when he had changed his mind.

He has started to date a much younger model, and i believe that he held on to me because he was afraid she was going to turn him down because of age difference etc....
He first made sure that she would be in his soup before he made it official.
Meanwhile he was flirting with me.
Because he is a celebrity everything is happening behind "closed doors", so his flirting was always "hidden".
I am angry because he misused my feelings.
I really need some help with this.
It started out as a sympathy thing and ended up in something ugly.
I think he entered the internet to get sympathy from his supporters and he found somebody he could vent his anger and frustration threw.
Somewhere along the conversation things got confusing. I was not taking either sides in his break up, as i think they both are right and wrong.
Somewhere along the conversation he got to think that i was his ex girlfriend and that he could communicate threw me with her.
At the same time he was telling me how much he loved me on the television.
And now i think he has been dating this model in secret for a long time.
He needed someone to discuss his problems with, regarding his break up, and i wish he had gone to a psychologist because i have enough problems on my plate and in my soup as it is, and the last thing i need is a guy pretending to be in love with me, just so he can get someone to talk to about his problem.
Another issue is the health thing i experienced some years ago. I was never told to stop dating by my doctor, and even when i tried to explain this to him, he kept on having great anxieties about it.
I tried to explain to him that its not a big thing, and he refused to listen to me.
I find him naiv and ignorant and thought for a time that it would be best to leave him. But him stating out that i have a problem is not a good thing for me and my future, especially when that is a false reputation.
The worse is having my feelings misused and stepped on.
He can be an insulting bastard who doesn`t care much about other peoples feelings, just his own. And i think that is what got me in this situation in the first place.
He craves a lot of attention and say "me me me".
He is a handful to cope with.
I think he is shallow as hell, he sees that i am a little overweight and therefore decides to go with a younger and much skinnier woman.
Even if i know he has still got heavy feelings for me.
Does anyone have a good advice of how i should cope with this?
Its confusing when someone tells you that they have feelings for you and then turn themselves over in a split second and goes on a date with another woman.
People who have mental problems and mental diagnosis's can be more intense then others.
They can swing high and low, which makes them difficult to adjust to.
He can be provocative and aggressive towards me, for then becoming affectionate and loving.
I don`t know what i can do to stop him?
I hope that it will stop as he starts to date this woman, because i am tired of having to deal with his mental instabilities regarding this affair, his last affair, his family problems and his career.
How can a guy be so cheeky that he can flirt with one woman and then go on a date with another?
How can he be so cheeky that he wants me to be in his problems and at the same time he is dumping me?
I think he is a selfish guy who only thinks about himself and not others.
He thinks that he is the most important guy on this planet, which proves how big headed famous people can get.
I don`t mind it on a distance, but when it comes into my life, and starts to play havoc on my feelings i have a problem that i don`t want.
So do you have any advice for me?
It might just be my paranoid mind, but i think he has been following me on the internet and on my phone, to see where i have been? Again this might just be a paranoid thought, but there is something that has triggered it. He has made remarks in his messages to me, that i thought was strange, and i wondered how he could know about it.
He has been curious about my life and me as a person, and showed me emotional awareness and or attention.
If it had been a normal discussion i wouldn`t have minded, but he started this discussion with flirting and that makes it a different type of relationship.
He was all over me for a period, and he is still all over me.
So i am just wondering what he is doing with that woman in his life?
I wish he hadn`t made that aggressive pass on me because he is a person who doesn`t care about ordinary lives, he only cares about the fantasy world he is making for himself. He is a really disturbed person who doesn`t see the normal limits that other people see, and this makes me angry and provoked.
I wish i never had made that connection to him on the internet and that he was still just a guy.
He has been known for steering up things around him and getting heavily into things that meant something to him, even if he wasn`t always right.
He sang a song for me on the television and did something that i had told people on the internet that i had done.
He did it to say that he was in my life no matter what, and that he didn`t mind me being a bit odd.
Then he heard about the cell changes and backed away. Although now i am not sure, he might have had that model in the back of his mind all this time?
I think he should be ashamed of himself for lying.
Hopefully this affair doesn`t go on for a long time because she is so young she could be his daughter and i don`t know how his daughter feels about that?
Men with power and money are known for choosing younger women, i don`t know the reason why, but i think they need someone they can dominate.
Elder women have their own independence and this threatens them.
I think he is scared of independent women, and since i am a free spoken woman with my own mind, this frightens him.
Because he was going on and on about my health problem, i got provoked and might have written something about him on the internet. I felt as if he was being a bit abusive towards me, and not accepting the things that i was saying to him.
So his listening skills are very poor.
I told him that his listening skills are poor.
I think he is more concerned about himself then of anyone else.
He likes to talk about himself.
I think he is a little too self centred for my likings.

He keeps provoking me in different ways.
Treating me damn right nasty.
That makes me provoked and we got into a fight with each other.
I know he has fought with all his women before. I read that he had a nasty divorce and his break up from his last girlfriend was also a nasty break up, so he has a habit for arguing with women in his life.
For some reason i feel as if he is competing with women.
Men who are cowards always compete with women, or men with low self esteem.
They feel so bad and so fearful that the woman shall leave them, that they threaten her to stay in their life.

He has an attitude of like "you don`t mess with me! Don`t you know who i am?" type of thing.
At the same time he thinks that he can mess with my head, space, time, feelings and money.

He tells something embarrassing about himself and then afterwards yell at me for knowing about it.
He looks for sympathy but he doesn`t really know how to get it. Obviously i was being sympathetic towards him before i knew he was a two timing, lying bastard.
Now that i know he has dated other women while having this on line romance with me, he wants that attention and sympathy back again.
A lot of things happened, i haven`t told you about everything.
I was thinking about keeping some of the things private, but he is being such a dick head to me that i don`t know how i can hide it?
Now he is making out as if nothing happened.
I have gotten a very frustrated, bitter and aggressive person following me on the internet.
The goodness he gave was a piece of everything, but it becomes worth less when he treats me like $#%^. Like he has and like he is doing.
His moral standards can`t be very high as he thinks he can do whatever he likes to other peoples feelings, even if he knows he has hurt them in ways he probably didn`t know how.
I don`t think that he is a man who thinks a lot about consequences. He gets hysterical for small things in life and make a big deal out of nothing. He can be a very dramatic person who likes to cause a lot of problems around him.

He tries to cover up his guilt with being "a nice guy". He tries to behave as if he is so sympathetic towards me and talks to me like as if i am this pathetic creator on the internet, and as if he is the only one who knows what life is really about.
Like as if he is going to give me advice for how i should be leading my life, when this is something i never asked him about, so it gets really annoying and diminishing. Which i think is his real main goal, since we are arguing.
He knows that what he did was wrong.

What do you do with people who wont leave you alone?

I am so sick, tired and fed up.
I met someone on the net and this person is the most annoying person i have met in my entire life.
Trying to explain something to him is like talking to an impatient 3 year old, who has no patience in listening to other people.
He has totally misunderstood things.
He is an insulting bastard.
I was trying to explain something to him but he didn`t listen.
Instead he drew his own conclusions like as if he is some ######6 expert on what i was trying to explain to him.
He is so arrogant.
Then in the middle of explaining things he goes out and sees another woman, while he says that he loves me.