Tired to the Bone

Finally. Somewhere I feel I can talk.

I feel like I keep getting rejected by people and it's beginning to crush me inside. People on online forums are so mean and cliquey. I feel so dissapointed by everyone around me. At the same time, I don't know what I want from people. It seems as though when I get rejected my self-esteem takes a huge plummet. I've just been rejected again so...I feel awful inside now.

I feel as though I have this huge hole inside of me and that I don't know what would make me happy. I don't think I've felt happy for years. My happiness is too dependant on others.

Oh and hi. I'm Dark Wolf. Nice to meet you I suppose.

Hi there

For what it's worth...pay no attention to those who attack you. It's THEIR issue - not yours. There are some people who attach their own hang ups, experiences and beliefs to what they read. It's happened to me too and I pay no attention. Besides, what you write only equates to probably 30% in total of what's really going on. Language only equates to 7% of true understanding. The other 93% is how we REALLY communicate: body language and the non verbal. Language is a mere tool to give you an insight to a situation. It's like a street directory, it's a map, but it's' NOT the territory. A map looks nothing like the streets you drive up or down. It's merely an interpretation to give you a small insight into a given situation. Lots of people love to think that they can grasp ALL the nuances, details, non verbal, body language, sounds, smells and everything else that makes up life's stage.

So..take it with a grain of salt and be clear in your mind as to why you are writing here.

Me...I love self expression, I love to write...and I had a need to vent. Writing is a fantastic tool to release anger, frustration and all things negative. It's done wonders for me...and I only listen to people's opinions insofar as their ability to apply sensitive, direct and reflective experiences. It's up to you as to the merit you place on what you read. It's like a newspaper...choose the articles that you like and forget the rest. It's not that other people's opinions don't count, but they may well not be applicable to your situation, and only you know ALL the details.

Ciao.

DarkWolf wrote:Finally. Somewhere I feel I can talk.

I feel like I keep getting rejected by people and it's beginning to crush me inside. People on online forums are so mean and cliquey. I feel so dissapointed by everyone around me. At the same time, I don't know what I want from people. It seems as though when I get rejected my self-esteem takes a huge plummet. I've just been rejected again so...I feel awful inside now.

I feel as though I have this huge hole inside of me and that I don't know what would make me happy. I don't think I've felt happy for years. My happiness is too dependant on others.

Oh and hi. I'm Dark Wolf. Nice to meet you I suppose.

Hi Dark Wolf,
You've come to the right place. You'll never be rejected here.
I know exactly what you mean about tying your happiness to other people. That's something I'm still working on myself.
Hope to read more from you!

Wish you well,

Evol

Now I feel pissed off and angry at these people and at humanity in general. Why should I bother to be nice if it gets me no where? I really do think it gets me no where. So ###$ everyone. ###$ my family. ###$ my so called friends. ###$ the people I interact with. I'm tired of bending over backwards for them. -.-

That felt good to say that.

Oh and thanks Sweetcheeks and Evol for your responses.

That felt good to say that.

Precisely what I've been saying all along...there is something very theraputic thinking that THE ENTIRE WORLD has listened to you banging on.

For some people, online forums are the only places that they can be themselves. We can be nice, we can be bad and some furums are open for that. Our real world is hard sometime so make it, a little bit easy in here.

Sorry, couldn't help about how you can find your happiness. I am looking for them too. Sometime they just come easily but sometime is just really hard to get.

May