Feeling horrible

I keep having racing thoughts about my fiance cheating on me or other things like that and when I said I was suicidal he said he didn't take it seriously. I don't know what to do i love him so much but i sometimes think that he is just with me because he is afraid to break up with me. I hate myself so much why was i even born.

((((((((marteenmullins))))))) Don't be so hard on yourself, it's not your fault you keep getting these thoughts. Are you getting professional help? Don't do anything to hurt yourself, nothing is worth that, and you're not alone.