gay: passionate (somewhat) but pointless

I'm involved with a bisexual who stated he couldn't ever come out of the closet -- simply too nerve-wracking for him. We discovered that we have feelings for each other, but he continued to text with random gay men, and he said it was just to "tease them cos I like teasing people." Well, Goddamnit, the way he talks to them is the way I wish he would talk to me. Hurt, confused and desperate, and in the dark because he's a (very) good-looking and charming guy who likes and knows how to get sex and I had no way of knowing he WASN'T sleeping with them, I "cheated" on him and betrayed him, but until then I didn't know how he really felt about me. Come to find out after, he really loved me and wasn't sure how to show it because this is the first time he's felt like this toward a man, and he was considering a serious relationship with me.

I always knew communication and honesty are the golden keys to a successful relationship, but that has never rung so true to me as it does now.

We continue to kiss, cuddle and have sex, but he's already said he can never forgive me for what I did. So what are we doing, then? I want to end it because I know that's the healthiest thing to do in this case, especially since now I know there's no hope for us together, but I have been trying and trying and cannot shake my own love for him. I keep thinking of all the things he does and says to me that turn me off and cut me up inside, and still my efforts are for naught. I still love him, very much.

What do I do? What do we do? Our mutual best friend says we really ought to sit and hash it out, but I know I won't be able to control my emotions, and I'll just run down the list of his faults cos he's always picking on mine but rarely admitting his own.

I hate how much I love to come home to him every day. It makes me feel weak. I've always prided myself on being a brains-over-emotions kind of guy, and this is the first thing that's ever shaken me. Can't stand it.

You'll get worn out by this dead end relationship if you're incapable of calling it quits now. It depends on how much more time you're willing to waste.