I just moved back to college about a month ago. I have one best friend who goes here and about 10 other good acquaintances.
I am having difficulties with those 10 friendships. I was playing volleyball with a few of them, and just have a hard time being myself around them. I get quiet, self-conscious around them. They have branched out and met new people, but I haven't.
This isn't just a problem with them though. It seems like all my old friends are making new friends, and I'm stuck in the past.
I just don't have a drive to meet new friends. I WANT to have this drive, but if any of my buds want to go to a party somewhere, I just want to go home because I'm not interested in others at all.
If I'm talking to another person, I can barely ever keep a conversation afloat because I'm not curious about them.
Last night, I was hanging out with 4 friends, and I was fine. Then two people I don't really know walked in and I got, again, quiet and self-conscious. We then decided to walk to a party, and I just went home because I had no desire to be around new people.
I WANT to have an interest in new people, but I just don't right now. Why could this be and how could I change it?
One hypothesis of mine is that I form prejudices (not in a racial sense, but literaly pre-judgments) about other people. I have one encounter with them, or maybe no encounters at all and just hear about them, and I feel as if I know all about that person. I think I need to look into other people, and not just at them. This hypothesis doesn't help me though.
Can you?