I'm screaming inside and about to give up.

Everything was fine a couple of days ago. I don't know why I bother getting into relationships. I don't know why I don't just stay like my old ways, meeting guys for the instant satisfaction, no worries about how to behave in stupid realtionships.

One silly phone call and now I'm feeling even lower than I was earlier. All I wanted to do was say good morning.

"I'm too busy watering the garden and feeding the birds and packing the car so I can come up to you, I can't do that and talk on the phone, what do you want."

So I clammed up as usual. Switched my phones off. Told him it wasn't important, which it was. I don't even want him to come up now. I feel like running away.

It is because the other person does not behave in the way you want them to? I want to have my space, but I don't like people who make excuses all of the time why we cannot get together.

Best thing is: if you are ready to go out, call me. Meantime, I'll do what I want to do.

Try not to let it get you down. relationships are impossible for some people, including me.

I know the feeling of not being on the same page with someone else... especially when it matters.

And when you try to do something thoughtful or pleasant, and it's overlooked... you get that feeling of you insides sinking. So what do we do? We don't say anything, just swallow that feeling and forget about it. But we always hope they notice it so when they bring up, "are you okay?", we MIGHT answer. At least, that how I am sometimes. I think it's because I want them to KNOW on their OWN that I'm upset.

But, just try to look at it from his view. Perhaps he really was occupied and what he said came out the wrong way. I've done that too. If things were just fine days ago, I'm sure being patient can help fix that.

Sorry for sounding so optimistic.

SigurPol and On_The_Edge thank you for answering.

He's here now in the garden, planting.

I'm angry at myself because once again I'm forgetting how upset I was over the phone call. I didn't mention it, I don't like arguments, I was hoping he'd apologise. But I don't want an apology after I've explained how much he upset me.

Sometimes I wish I could stay as upset as I was initially, things might get resolved better. But I forget, just like now. I smile, make him laugh, cheekily poke him in the belly when he's trying to work. I suppose he didn't mean anything, but I wouldn't speak like that to anyone. I'd even find it hard saying that to an enemy.

Still, even though I'm a little happier now, I still resent the fact we'll be sharing a bed tonight. But I KNOW for a fact once we get into bed I won't feel that way.