long-term relationship

this is a long distance relationship where the girl didn't speak a language I spoke and hers I knew very little but eventually learnt.

Now she's in a place where I'm not allowed togo too because I need to get back into the cooking industry. I should be doing some free work Monday-Wednesday or thursday and then get a reference for a job, but I really need to get discharged from this mental facility, I understand this is a good place but there's nothing more they can do besides exercise me and I can get plenty of that in a kitchen.

Now the girl I miss but we are broken up because I phoned her on my card and she was sleeping with another man. I felt bad but I understand it is there way of life.. she needs a child to take care of I think. Or I don't know why she had to sleep with him, maybe she was just horny.

Hi,

I can imagine in the future that this girl will only cause you heartache if you continue to think about her. Therefore, it would be best to just leave her to her own life (i.e. - forget about her). If your doctor admitted you to the hospital, then it will be his/her decision about when you leave. So, try to make an effort to prove that you can survive in the 'real' world. What I mean is, do everything 'right' and the way that your doctor would want it to be done. Also, partake in the social activities that exist in the hospital.

Kevin.

thanks Chucky, I agree completely. I'm actually hopefully gonig to get a 6 day pass back into the community. Today tommorow, saturday and sunday I will stay with my mom then on Monday, Tuesday and Wednesday I will cook at my old old school's kitchen. He wants me there 8:30, I got a cooks uniform bandana and a White Spot Chefs hat. (WhiteSpot is a popular restaurant chain I worked at before going to the mountains to work at Fairmont Chateau Whistler).

I'm pretty sure 6 days means starting tommoroow. Today day 0. Well anyways I have a meeting with my mom my doctor and me at 2:30 so wish me luck.

That sounds excellent whero. Just remember to act composed and do everything right during the 6-day pass. i'm sure that your doctor will be talking to people you interact with while ouside the hospital (for example, your mother).

Do you know what you are going to cook at the school kitchen?

Kevin.

He will probably want mee to make a stock or just get some prep ready, maybe make a entree salad for a school banquet. I might be making BMT or Clubhouses at sandwich station.

But it is a very good programme for what resources they have. I am excited but I have to admit me and my mom got in a bit of a tuffle, there was some dirt in the fridge but only on the door, she said she would clean it but then got mad at me for using a really wet cloth to keep my cutting board from moving. I'm gona go apologize even though I made a nice peanut salad, and a potato soup and we have leftover potatoes and salad.

PS. already said it she said thanks and the meal was good and the day was good.

That's good news and I'm sure that your doctor will look favourably on it all. How often do you meet jim (your doctor) anyway? When I was in the hospital, I only met him once or twice each week. I thought that was too little.

Kevin

everyday, but last week he went on holidays to france so I had to see the other doctor on the ward, this is a closed ward and he saw me once and finished my levels which was level 3 full, meaning I could leave whenever I want and come back whenever I want as long as I take my medication and stay on the Hospital grounds.

This is a very good hospital but it has it downsides. People stay there they're entire lives because they are so ill they cannot function or stay there for years at a time while in my case I lost grip on reality for afew weeks and personally with the right medication I could of gone back got a job and started working again, but here they want to make sure your 110%, at least this time.

So for your answer every weekday but not weekends and my doctor usually takes Monday off too and comes in whenever he see fits. He does have alot of other pasicients besides me and works in another hospital. You can see his bio on google. Dr. Dowey.

During my two weeks stay at the hospital, I also encountered people that had been there for a very long time. There was one guy - an old man - who had been there for years. However, he had Alzheimer's Disease and barely even knew where he was half of the time.

What is the hospital like at the weekends? In the one where I was, the hospital was incredibly quiet at the weekend and all of the main services were closed. The 'quiet room' was even locked over the weekend which was unjust, I thought.

Kevin.

Saturday is ok, there is social workers who run programs and then they watch a movie at nighttime.

I usually just walk off the grounds and back to my house and go on my computer and chat via msn, head back, my mom gives me 5 dollars to get a subway sandwich or a frapucino at starbucks.

Yesterday they got angry at me and told me not to do it again because I brought the starbucks cup inside while I usually eat my sandwich in the cafe.

Otherwise on sundays most people just go out to smoke while I stay inside and watch tv, or try to invent new recipes. My chef always said you could be the one to invent the next macaroni and cheese.

PS. The chefs at my old school did take my recipes, I ended up emailing them and they're still accepting until june 3 but I gave them all the ingenious ones I created being in the hospital.

You can loook at being in the hospital as a bad or a good thing. I tried to stay positive and there is one man who gave me an amazing recipe. Artichoke boiled then a mayo-butter dip (for me a dash of chili spice) and dip the leaves until you get to the heart and then munch away. You could easy change the recipe to canned hearts and dip all those away but I prefer his.

I viewed my two-week stay in the hospital as positive in that it woke me up to the fact that I was destroying my own life and needed to act. So, staying there triggered a 'slingshot effect' - i.e. Before I went in, I was on a downhill slope in life but, when I got there, I quickly realised what I was doing wrong and suddenly jumped on the uphill slope and have been on it since.

Kevin.