WEll, i've done it.

my relationship started not so well. Almost three years ago my relationship with my boyfriend started with him not being so honest. He didn't 'cheat' but he lied by omision about things in the first six months that made me uncomfortable.
All this time we've tried to work to build the trust that should have been there. I have held a hard grudge, and recently blew up at my boyfriend for adding some girl as a friend to his facebook. We are mid thirties -ridiculous that I even care.
It blew up into this huge thing and now he says, 'something died inside of me that spark, and I don't know if I can get it back. I just feel out of this relationship, I deserve better than to not be trusted, you should prepare to be alone'

I am crushed. He told me it's my fault. and I admit, I definitely could have been in control of my emotions and not made my issues always his or ours.
Jealousy is so unattractive, and that is what I presented to him.

He has agreed (so far) to go to our regularly scheduled therapy session with me on thursday, 'to see if the doc can help me find that spark'..... I don't know how to act or what to do.
Called off of work today just can't deal right now.

Hi, nervousnelly. Maybe going to the therapy session will help and you will find the spark again. But don't give in to desperation if things don't work out. You can find someone else who will treat you better. I know jealousy is unatractive, however we sometimes have reason to suspect or misstrust our partner. It could be becouse we don't get enough attention from them and we fear they might want another person. I say don't give up and talk to your boyfriend about how this makes you feel. If he cares, he could take some time to work on your relationship.