Why women always rejected me

The reason why girls keep rejecting you it is spiritual. God is restricting you from women because you are destroying your well being/health by pursuing them too much since the more you pursue something that you currently can't obtain the worse your depression and anger will worsen. So life blocks them from you so you can heal and focus on your purpose like passion job & hobbies. Once you stop pursuing them you will notice your emotions get better and girls able to come back to your life after a while of taking break to focus on your health and important purpose(s) of your life. Focus on the purpose you were brought in this world for, such as having a job your passionate about that isn't boring. Or pursuing some type of hobby you're passionate about.

I understand there are many religion but in the end a god (creator/engineer) does exist. I honestly don't believe some of things in bible but i realized in the end i believe in a god, and good and evil

Which is my next point, if your doing evil or bad things like stealing, watching evil pornography, hate, cheating, perving that can contribute to your women restriction or add to your depression because god stop protecting you from evil spiritual forces if you're doing bad things. Kind've like karma.

Earlier in my life I didn't really bring myself in situations where I could get rejected. But a couple of years ago I got rejected in a way that made me avoid romantic relations for quite some time. I think the reason was - I wasn't their type, as simple as that. If it's a match, I can say or do the most irrational stupid kind of things and it'll still turn out fine.

In my head, women have always turned me down because I don't believe I deserve their affection. Because of past hurts, I find it hard to trust others and am reserved when meeting new individuals. I can never seem to initiate anything, and by the time I do, it's too late. I'm not the most sure of myself, so it's hard for me to make a good first impression. I'm doing my best to address these concerns, but it's tough going. But I'm going to keep trying because I want to find someone who will love me for myself, not for what I'm supposed to be.