In love with a guy,don't know what to do

So,I really like this one guy I went to high school with.The problem is,I've never really talked to him much and now I haven't seen him in months and probably never will.
The only way to get in contact would be by messaging him on Facebook and it would be just too obvious that I like him.That'd be all right if I knew he liked me too,but I don't and there's no way of finding out.

What should I do?I really feel like I should try because I doubt I'll meet a guy like him in my college,but I'm scared.

I've been where you are at, and I think that the "conflict" you are facing is entirely internal. Nobody will think less of you for being obvious about being interested in a person. You may be a little too invested prematurely (since you might be fearing rejection so much), but the reality of the situation is that there is nothing wrong with coming out to someone. Just take it realistically. I'm sure most decent people would be flattered to be asked to hang out and keep in touch with someone from their past.

But I've never ever been interested in anyone before.
And getting rejected would kill me,I mean literally,I'd probably commit suicide because I'd think I'm not good-looking enough for him.And he doesn't seem to be what you'd consider 'decent'.I mean,he's smart and interesting and the hottest guy ever(I'm the only one who thinks that though ),but not very friendly or nice,most people kinda hate him and my friends always joke about liking him.It'd be great if he liked me,but I really can't know.

You're being overly dramatic. As it is at that age. Even as a guy I was.

Seriously, it's nothing. Run the game theory:

Ask and be accepted: Great.
Ask and get rejected: Big emotional down-turn followed by getting over it and making it easier next time.
Don't ask: You'll never know. You never get that experience. You tie up more of your emotional energy in possibilities that never happened.

Seriously. This is level 1. And even if he did turn you down, that's not about you, that's about him. This is why in your other threads people are trying to tell you that you have to like yourself first. You do that, and him not liking you becomes his problem, not yours.

Either way, you lose nothing. Get some courage and start a conversation.

-- Mon Jul 21, 2014 10:15 am --

Also, "in love with" is totally a #######4 call at this stage. You are interested in a guy. It might be limerance or a crush, but "love" is definitely pie in the sky.

Also also, if all your friends "joke" about being interested in him, they're testing the waters for one reason or another. It's a coy tactic at best. You may as well try before they do. They have the same sort of hang-ups you do. They want their relationship to be socially acceptable with their peers, they don't want to be shot down, etc. But at the end of the day none of that stuff will matter in a few weeks, let alone a few years.

Trust me,people are genuinely disgusted and weirded out by him.
I think there could be girls outside of school that don't know him well,I know nothing about his love life though(except that one time he hired a hooker for a BJ )

In love=crush for me.

And how is him not liking me his problem?He'll get himself million more hookers or whatever and I'll be the one crying because he rejected me.

That's possible, but my experience has been that as "grossed out" as they may be, something about the "weird" guy probably has their attention. Perhaps just his disinterest. It's all psychology and hormones at that age.

Seriously, you need to see some value in yourself. I'm sure you're worth more than a hooker. I'm not going to judge him one way or another by that action, but you have to see things realistically.

If I felt I was worth more than a hooker I'd probably make myself a really expensive hooker.

There's always that option. Then he can pay for your services.

If I thought he'd pay for me I wouldn't even worry.

You live in your head and worry far too much.