im in love

there is somebody i keep contact with on a dating website and he has a mental illness.i love him alot and he loves me but i can feel him and his friends laughing in the background. i can feel it even though he says he doesnt do things like that.

but i love him and i cant let him go. he loves me too, i know it but he does not say it but i can feel his thoughts and feelings for me.

he points to the screen with his friends behind him and says "theres a sucker" and he has thoughts like "oh no hot him again, not that weirdo. go away. i am getting better and i dont need people like you reminding me"

but im not letting him get one over on me.

im not letting him win.

i am going to get the last laugh.

and i am going to have fun doing so.

i want to punish him for laughing at me and his rejection of me. but i love him.

the best relationships come from when you initaly hate eachother and then passionate love. so all this hating will be rewarded in the end as we both reliaze we are right for one another.

all it takes is that aknowledgement. thats it.

sounds like a tough situation. I hope things get better.

inlove123 wrote:he points to the screen with his friends behind him and says "theres a sucker" and he has thoughts like "oh no hot him again, not that weirdo. go away. i am getting better and i dont need people like you reminding me"

Is this happening between a video call like Skype or Google Hangouts or something that you envision is happening?

Assuming this is something that you are not seeing via a video call and given he says he does not do that sort of thing let me ask you this question.

What would you prefer.

Would you prefer that he does love you and he indeed is not doing any of those things and its your mind playing tricks or would you prefer that your mind is extremely sharp, accurate and perceptive about things it could not possible know and he is indeed all these things you are thinking (i.e. making fun)?