Why?

Hi everybody

I hope everyone is well!

My manager gave my colleague A a chance to take control over the staff rota. My manager said this colleague A will do it for six months and then the rest of us will be given the chance to do it. Well my colleague A has been doing it for eight months now. I have found since he has been doing it, I have found he likes to give me all the long days a lot.

A went away for a three weeks holiday and my manager gave me the opportunity to do the rota. I wanted to balance it out, make all the shifts as fairly and equally to all the staff.

When my manager does a sleepover, she likes to have another colleague on to do the Support Worker role with her. She is extremely close to a bank staff who is filling in the vacancy role and she likes her to work along with the manager and A. Well I chose for all the staff to have their own individual shifts with the manager including myself.

After I completed the rota, my manager gave me a lot of good feedback. I found the whole experience really good and it really enhanced my career. I really thought I had done really well and I would be given the chance to re-do it again next month.

Me and my manager has not always got on. Well to be honest, the professional relationship is awkward and not good. (I have posted threads in the past of my experiences with my manager and the bullying she has done to me). Ever since I stood up to her and told her she has made me feel very uncomfortable around her for months. It has affected her.

Well my colleague A came back from his holiday this week. While I was working along with the manager, I saw my opportunity to ask her about whether I can have a go at the rota again? She told me that she feels I have enough work on with being in charge of the medication and a key worker for two clients. When I pointed out to her that A is in charge of the Health and Safety and a key worker for 2 clients. She went quiet and said she will keep it on her mind.

Now also she realized I was going to be on shift on Monday. She is doing a sleepover and when I told her, I was going to be on Monday. She freaked out and asked me what shift I was doing? When she realized it wasn't the shift where I would be working along with her, she breathed with relief.

She is making obvious signs that she does not want to work with me. She is making it obvious that she would prefer to keep A with doing the rota.

Months ago, the deputy manager resigned from her job. The role was going free. It's my manager role to put either myself or A forward for the role. During out supervision meeting, she told me she didn't think I was ready for the role. She was happy to put A forward for it and to train him.

We have a staff meeting coming up next week. I am thinking of raising the staff rota subject up in front of everyone. I don't want to let this opportunity go because I really want to gain further experience in my job.

After all he has been doing for a long time. Why won't she give me a chance. She has told me I did a good job on the rota and letting me know that she does not like me?