Help me with letter I wrote her..FEEDBACK PLEASE

Ok folks....I wrote my old girlfriend this letter about 2 years ago and still I have not heard from her. I THOUGHT I was being gracious when I wrote it...but apparently not. As I explain in the why I deleted her in April of 2011...this letter was written in Oct 2011. I still cant believe that a woman could be so cold after reading this letter and still not have contacted me. BUT... believe me..I WILL continue to NOT contact her as obviously this is what she wants. Maybe I am just too nice and I deserve better. Just love for someone to REALLY read this letter carefully and then tell me what kind of woman I am dealing with...thanks so much FREE
Here is the letter written 2 years ago:

Hey C,
Trust me this letter gets better as it progresses. I owe it to you to explain what REALLY happened in April.

I saw in April where your parents were in path of the flood and I was concerned as your friend. You had told me in January that you wanted to be friends…and that you said…”It would make me so happy” and “We have so much fun together.” So I agreed and I took you at your word. What WAS confusing was not hearing from you after 4 months (Jan-April). I guess I'm a little dense and slow, but I thought you actually DID want to be friends. So when I did contact you in April, not once did you inquire as to what was going on in my life. And again this is after 4 months of silence.

What really hurt was this... At the time I contacted you in April, my Mom was deathly ill. I waited during our conversation for you to ask what was going on in my life…and you never did. That really hurt me deeply from someone who said they wanted to be friends. I had just left the nursing home when I contacted you and so wanted to share this with you. I was timid enough as it was contacting you again after 4 months of silence. But I did not tell you because I did not want to “use” mom to play on your sympathy. If you in fact never really and truly wanted to be friends, I just wish you had told me that way back in Jan. I could have handled it. But instead I was left confused and with a hurt heart. So I deleted you on FB. To me, your silence of 4 months plus your aloofness in April with no reciprocity was not very “friend like”. So when I deleted you…it was NOT out of anger…but out of a deep hurt. But again, maybe your silence and all was your subtle way of telling me you did not in fact really want to be friends. Again I guess I'm dense, but I would rather have heard the truth.

BUT, TIME HEALS ALL WOUNDS….and after 6 months I am over it. I fully accept your decision in April of not wanting to be true friends. In fact, I most likely overstayed my welcome last year. So, what I am extending to you is the proverbial olive branch. I do NOT want to be your enemy. I WAS shocked when I saw that I was deleted blocked on FB, BUT you had every right to do that. I don't blame you one bit.

What I AM saying is that life is WAY too short to hold grudges. ..ESPECIALLY when I cared for you so much at one time. Heck you'll be 54 next month !!! You were 47 when I contacted 7 years ago. I missed keeping up with you and your family and what was also going on in the latest Andy Griffith show. Missed hearing how you would dangle from ladders and fall out of cars.

So I wanted to “manup” and contact you in spite of what I'm sure will be more silence from you…and if so I accept your position… Just wanted to be the one to offer peace between us.

I wish nothing but the best in life for you and your family. You are one sweet lady. Maybe I'll see you in 30 years in the nursing home.

Take Care, JB
Freeatlast51

So Much for FEEDBACK Please...!!!

So sorry you had to wait so long Free.

I, unfortunately, know this situation all too well. People who meet me are always like "You are so much fun and so cool! We should totally hang out!" so we exchange numbers or go onto facebook and then... Nothing. No invites to parties, no coffee, not even chatting.

When I eventually decide to be brave (this doesn't happen often so it may be months) They also seem cold eg: Me: "Hi! How are you?" Person: "OK. Just busy"... Nothing more. Not a return question... Nothing. In my opinion they were never really interested in being friends with you and forcing friendship on anyone won't work anyway so I just give up (And no I really don't have other friends to chat with so I am really hurt by their rejection)

I hope this helped. Stay strong!

Time really does heal...!!!