Standing on the edge

I fell in love with a girl a few years ago. We went together awesomely. I wanted to spend the rest of my life with her.

I recently found out she had been cheating on me for about three months. When confronted about it, she attempted suicide, and I had her put into a mental hospital against her will.

She'd been lying to both of us, making me out to be the bad guy with him, and telling me she wasn't seeing anyone.

She's out now, and she's someone elses girlfriend. She keeps me hanging on by hinting that we'll get back together eventually, and occasionally sleeping with me. I really do make my mind up to stop all this, but when I see her, I can't go through with it.

I want her back so bad. Everyone tells me to move on, but I can't. I am still her best friend, and she mine. He treats her like crap, always paranoid and going through all her stuff all the time. I never judged her or even got upset at anything other than leaving me.

I don't know what to do. I don't think I can take much more of it. I'm in therepy but it's not really helping any. I can't give up and move on. I wish I could, but I can't.

Sorry bro. I feel something very simaliar. I know exactly how you feel. I feel in love with a druggie, lying whore. She never admits she does anything wrong, tries to kill herself, treats me like $#%^, I treat her like a queen. I'll never get over her. I'm crossed the edge.