I'm not even sure how I got in the position I'm in, and I'm not sure why i'm writing my story here on the internet. I guess in a way it makes me feel like I have someone to talk to, someone "normal" to tell me their opinion.
first, i'm a men and i'm 27yr old. i had 2 ''real'' girlfriend in my life. first, I was with Kate from 16yr old to 18yr old. She is indeed my 1st true love, but I broke up with her after 2 years of relationship because i cheated her with a girl called Vicky. after some times, Vicky became my girlfriend from 18yr old until the last year (9yr of relationship). for me, she was the perfect girl and I would have done anything for her. but last year, it has been for me the ''end of the world'' when she decided to broke up with me without any good reason.
Now here is where my issue begins, since she broke up, I finally got over her but not totally, every night I can't go to sleep because i start thinking about her for hours and i have the worst feeling in the world because she is not with me and because she will never be in my bed again, but probably with another guy and it is really unbearable... I did anything to make this feeling go away, even drinking and smoking weed until i pass out... Yeah i know thats pretty pathetic but it's the only way i found to get her out of my mind.
any help would be really appreciate!
thanks a lot!
-Dark Templar