Whats my problem?

dear carson,belive me i really understand you,because am lonly right now and i know how it feels when my friend talk about their boy friends and their fiance.i think (i said i think bcos am not an expert)that u have not completly free your self of the love you ones felt for your ex girl.
I really dont think theres anything wrong in being turned down by a lady,u could pick up conversation with a lady and ask her out in the process ,if she turns you down ,u dont have any reason to feel rejected ,b'cos it is not the first time it will happen nor is it the last time,so pick up courage and try again,who knows you might meet the girl of your dream willing to marry you!.
pls stay away from the web cos u can not get the kind of thing you are looking for there,you will only meet people that just want to play and move on not someone who wants comitment.now go there and find your girl,you deserve it .good luck

dear carson,belive me i really understand you,because am lonly right now and i know how it feels when my friend talk about their boy friends and their fiance.i think (i said i think bcos am not an expert)that u have not completly free your self of the love you ones felt for your ex girl.
I really dont think theres anything wrong in being turned down by a lady,u could pick up conversation with a lady and ask her out in the process ,if she turns you down ,u dont have any reason to feel rejected ,b'cos it is not the first time it will happen nor is it the last time,so pick up courage and try again,who knows you might meet the girl of your dream willing to marry you!.
pls stay away from the web cos u can not get the kind of thing you are looking for there,you will only meet people that just want to play and move on not someone who wants comitment.now go there and find your girl,you deserve it .good luck

This is a lot of great advice.

Just not easy to do. Not worrying about others... yes, but easier said than done. I dont know how to explain it... everyone Ive met or see in the public its like watching a movie... it just seems fake or dreamy... like theyre perfect and everything in their life is just right. As if they know what theyre doing and theyre on their path and Im trying to figure out what Im suppose to be doing.

I feel like Im climbing a neverending series of walls. I feel small to everyone else... like Im misplaced.

Part of me wants to meet someone new but then the other part of me feels it would be wrong to do so because of my EX. Because we formed a bond together that lasted over 7 years. Even though I was abadoned I dont know if I could go through that again. Im still lost and confused as to what happened.