Is this PTSD or am I crossing that line into psychosis?

I was raped repeatedly 2 years ago. It never really bothered me until about 1 year ago. Honestly, I was in a heavy amount of denial. But since I faced that I was raped, I went through the stages of depression, anxiety, anger, and then a mix of them. After I went through the mixed stage, I started having very frequent flashbacks. I throw my head back, pull out my hair, start yelling and instantly fall to the floor. I'm able to get up and resume whatever I was doing in a minute or so, but it happens constantly. I sometimes walk into my room and I can smell my rapist. I have vivid flashbacks and I can see him, hear him and even feel him grabbing me sometimes. I also have flashbacks that have absolutely nothing to do with him or being raped. Just other sorts of regrets I have, and they're just as violent and realistic as the other flashbacks. And I always think he's behind me, too. So I sit and stand against walls to avoid thinking he is directly behind me. Sometimes, I fall into a type of a blank stare. When this happens, it's like I'm day dreaming except they are very, very realistic. I can see, feel and hear the people/things I'm daydreaming about. When this happens, I have absolutely no sense of presence or time. I'm NOT where I am. I am deep in my mind, and I no longer see what's physically in front of me or anything. I'm completely gone. I also have had a couple encounters with dissociation. I'll be doing something at one point, and I'll 'come back' hours later with absolutely no recollection of what happened during that time. I do NOT have DID. What is going on? Please?

Hi dreaming,
I was also raped multiple times, and I've been a crowd of people, smelled my ex's cologne, and suddenly I see him in the crowd. I know it's not really him, but I see him there, just as clear as I'd see anybody else. Sometimes I feel like he's attacking me all over again. It doesn't even feel like a flashback; it feels like it's really happening. I don't think you sound psychotic, but you should see a therapist. I had to see a few therapists before I found the right one, but, once I did, she was invaluable in helping me understand what I was going through.

I know this was posted a long time ago, but I want you to know that you are not crazy for going through this. You are having very vivid flashbacks, and that's what they are. Sometimes flashbacks are hard to separate from reality even once they are over, but this is a normal response to to trauma. I am very sorry you are going through this. No one should ever have to deal with sexual abuse/rape. I hope things are better sinse you have posted. you have my care, love, and support.