Am I paranoid?

Yeah I know. Thanks!

Am I over reacting when I start yelling at my friend for making an incest joke, joking that I'd incest someone? I was cussing and I just got so mad. Was I over reacting? He told me he makes jokes like that with his other friends all the time... wow... I told him that's insensitive, making a joke out of a trauma, and I made him read the side effects of this. Anyways, was I over reacting?

You're not over reacting. Something awful happened to you and you have a right to feel this way. But you're not being too sensitive. People who make these jokes or like them are insensitive.

(I feel like I don't talk right. It's not your fault, you're not the only person lately)

I called HIM insensitive XDD It's okay, It's my fault, not your's. Anyways, I'm nervous for therapy, hoping we can accomplish something soon, I mean, I cried last night when that guy made that joke. Everytime I hear the word "sex" "sexual" "sexually" and other things related to the topic, I almost burst into tears. I just, can't handle it anymore. >.< I'm really hoping my therapist will help and fast.

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Yeah, i know, this isn't gonna be over fast, but I mean, at least get me to a point where I can verbally talk about it without crying.

I hope your therapist can help too.
Yes, he was insensitive. That's what I meant Sorry if I got it wrong, it's ok. You talk just fine, don't worry about it.
I know how it is to react to this so strongly. To the thought of sex and stuff. But it can get better.
All you need to do is talk about it and let it out. But give your self time and space also. Move at your own pace. No reason to hurry or do anything that makes you feel uncomfortable.

Yeah.. true... thanks.

Lol. I think being able to laugh at myself is my best quality sometimes. Such as, last night, I was so scared someone was there, I almost screamed. It's funny now, but it wasn't then

Like the time I got trapped outside with my two younger cousins and we were out there for 40 minutes, scared, and alone. Their father was home, but asleep, with blasted CREEPY music playing, which didn't calm us down. And to top it all off, since the beginning, we all had to go the bathroom, and we were too embarrassed to go outside! XD Its funny now, but it wasn't then, when it happened.

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Anyways, to get back on topic, I just, can stand it online, but not in real life. What's up with that?

Yep, being able to laugh at yourself is good It's easyer online.
Becouse it's private, since no one actually knows who you are. It's easyer for me too. I understand how stressed you must be feeling.

I am feeling really stressed actually, you read me like an open book xD But seriously, I have a lot of things going on all at once, and I have a lot of people counting on me, while I have to do deal with a lot. I mean, I've got next year at school, and I have a lot of enemies already and such and I'm joining a new school, which REALLY sucks, but I knew some, and they had decided to be my enemies, and now I have to deal with the stress that they're going to do something to me. I mean my old school had a "zero tolerance" on bullying and $#%^ like this one, but I honestly believe a policy like that is #######4 after what happened.

Oh, man, that sucks. I've been bullyed too in school.
I guess you have to stay calm, as best as you can. It's good that you can get therapy and I hope it helps. Bullies are cowards. And you are not weak.

Haha... Stay calm? Being bullied made ME a bully for awhile, and I still am, but I can't help it. It just makes me feel better inside that I am intimidating someone else. Now I don't physically bully them, which i wish I did, rather than emotionally bully them. Bullying created my evil temper, I never really had one so bad before. It's just, I couldn't take so many kids bullying me, and the few that didn't, couldn't, because they knew I was better than them in so many ways, not bragging. In fact, bullying is what took away a medal when I had 6th grade promotion. I remember what did, too. I was just so pissed all morning, come lunch time, I had hit someone, and I was caught. It took away two medals, the Citizenship award and the Principal award, the highest award. I would have gotten it, I know. But I made the mistake and lost my cool. I still regret what I did, but I hate them with all my heart, because they had actually been a bully since they came to my school around after Christmas time. Anyways... now we're moving to a bully topic.. haha... I know I need to stop being a bully, but I can't. That's like one thing that helps me - I wish it didn't - and I need it. Until I stop being bullied, I can't stop being one. Being bullied gave me low self esteem, anger, made me a bully, made me depressed, made me want to suicide. If it wasn't for a few friends, I [[TRIGGER TRIGGER TRIGGER TRIGGER SO DON'T SAY I DIDN'T WARN ANYONE]] I would have shoot up my school or killed some of them - that's how depressed, angry, insane they made me. Thankfully online I'm not picked on for being non-athletic or for being uber smart and creative, I'm actually appreciative. So the internet is a very important thing to me. Sorry for the extremely long post... and being off the topic of what we're on. I just need this, and I really don't feel like moving to the bullying forum.

Hey, we can talk about anything you want and the posts don't have to be short. If you say that bullying others makes you feel better becouse you're being bullied too...
I supose you could try to find a better way to direct that energy. You say you're not athletic, but maybe you can find a sport that you could enjoy. Or just working out helps. Maybe you could put all the anger into your art.
I hope your therapist can come up with some answers about this.