Does this count as sexual assault?

Ok I had a kinda 'friends with benefits' thing going on where we would fool around together most days after school. But sometimes when he was masterbating me it would hurt and I would tell him to stop but he just laughed and carried on. I tried to pull away his arm but he was too strong and kept pushing further in.

Another time I was out drunk with my friend and another friend was lying down on the floor, so I bent over to see if he was ok and my other friend came up behind me, pulled down my pants and stuck his fingers in me. I feel like this was wrong but we were kissing and masterbating each other like 10 minutes beforehand so he could have just been playfully carrying on? I went back to his and slept in his bed with him. All night he fingered me while I squirmed and tried to move his hand. The next day he told everyone I came onto him and I got called a slut for the following year.

Another time I was walking down the road with a boy and we were kissing and he took me to the side of the road and licked me out without asking me - he did this without consent but I didn't stop it so I'm not sure this counts.

Boys used to tell me I couldn't leave their house unless I flashed or masterbated them or did something and they would physically hold me back unless I did it. It was all playful at the time but looking back this isn't right.

At school guys used to grope my parts all the time in lessons and in the school playground and I would sometimes try and move their hands but I sort of got used to it and in the end just let them.

I'm unsure as to whether any of this counts as sexual abuse/assault - it was all playful and funny to them at the time and I didn't know if I was being taken advantage of or if I was 'frigid' like they told me. Any ideas?

First of all, none of that is your fault and it does not make you a slut. If you told them no and they continued then it is sexual assault. If you didn't do anything to stop them or tell them no then its technically not assault. If this ever happens again make sure you say no and that you are heard. Just because you didn't stop them doesn't mean you wanted/liked it. Sounds like you were/are young and you just didn't know how to handle it, thats not uncommon. No man has the right to touch you if you dont want it so dont be afraid to speak up.

Thanks, I was young, 15/16, but the boys doing it to me were the same age.

I know not to let it happen again because now I have a 'no touching' policy and I don't go out drinking anymore, and I am no longer friends with them. I don't know if I'll be like this forever, maybe just for the next few years before I'm ready to be intimate with people again, but I'm Schizoid so I don't have a need for intimacy anyway.

In time you will find someone that you trust. My best friend and my aunt are schizophrenic and they both have a normal relationship with a man. Not sure if schizoid means the same thing or not? It can take time to get over these things. I've been thru a lot of sexual abuse myself and I have been able to overcome it and I have a normal relationship now. I have posted my story on here and your welcome to read it if you think it might help and not trigger anything.