i finally remembered

I can tell you something pretty sad and disturbing. I don't know what to do about it. I went through PTSD today and am still. I remembered being drugged with a rag to my face and I remember waking up on the bed being molested and being ragged again. this was between age 4 and 5. I can remember two occasions that this happened. I can't believe I blocked it out for this long. Its wierd its like there was always something there but I was unable to realize or understand what and remember. But now Im coping. And im not affraid anymore. I had to use all my self control not to go out and kill this person today and his whole damn family.
I had a lot of emotions today and broke down a lot withing the last 25 hours since I coped with it and reconized it and accepted it and then of course living it again and remembering more and more. I felt like I was going to dig myself into an early grave. I tell you it's horrible the things we go through.....
any thoughts im open for explaining some

I replied to your PTSD post.

hiya

i was abused as a child.my mum had a heroin habit and found that a young girl could earn more money than her on the game.i was her money machine.i felt bad as a child and i blocked a lot of it out.it wasnt until my daughter came to the age i was when the abuse started that it came back to me.even now it feels like it didnt happen to me..but to some other poor girl that i feel i know only vaguely.sometimes i can be doing something realy mundane like washing up..and im gazing out the kitchen window watching the world go by when....bang, im watching that little girl go through hell.therapy and counciling helped me a lot.although it felt like opening up a whole horrible can of worms at first.im dealing with things a bit better these days.have you thought about getting some help to come to terms with all this?....its such a big thing to do alone.and well done for keeping calm and not leting your temper get the better of you.take care x

It is normal for a person to forget drug rape.

THe nightmare: Realizing something was over your face and you could do nothing about it.

It's classified as drug rape and is "completely normal" to forget that sort of thing.

Now, that you remember?

IT's time to go on.

Remembering is the first step to recovering from it!

It's not easy!

I workied with a young womean who was drugged by coffee at an equestrian center. Non-concent...she got loose and was raped! Forgot it for three years.

Until it came back. It was like puzzle pieces. She thought she was going crazy. The pieces were coming back in fragments in a non-congruent order. I helped her find the pieces until she found the truth.

Then she felt free and was able to go on with her life!

Some friendshops are meant to be and have time limit! I couldn't understand that.

I had to find that out.

The past can't be undone..but, the future is yours to find.