I'm New: In need of something I have not yet done.

disregaurding all that has been said/typed...sometimes I just don't care anymore. I feel like laying on the floor forever doing nothing but just blankly staring into the air. Letting go of myself and all hope for anything I ever had. Letting go of all dreams I had. Letting go of it all. just not caring about anything...and not caring if I am cared about. just disappearing.

I got "fired" from my none paying job today. Because I wasn't on the payroll so if I was to get hurt I could possibly press charges or something. I was a huge help to the company and was thanked by several people and I loved working there, pay or not. Just to be there and not sitting at home alone with my mind. Dare I say that this job was actually helping me grow up and I've never been happy about that before.

Oh I know you do, I know that feeling when you just want to give up and throw in the towel, because it is stressful and it is hard to deal with. But remember it will never go away until you've dealt with it. No matter how hard you try and forget, it is always going to continue to come back and haunt you. No one can deal with this kind of thing on their own, it's impossible.

I'm sorry to hear about your job, there are other jobs out there that are right for you, just have to go out and get them.

Don't give up... maybe you are feeling this way because of what happened with work?